Th Past.

Sometimes, all we wish is for the world to be a beautiful place.

2011-03-06T16:17:00.001+08:00

What's meant to be, will be.

2010-06-06T10:00:00.000+08:00

It'll all come back down, to that one person.

2010-06-05T10:32:00.000+08:00

Caught in a bad romance,

2010-06-04T21:13:00.004+08:00

"Maybe what they say is true. There are those people you encounter in life whom you never really get over. Even if you meet others who treat you better and love you more, there is always that person you can’t quite completely forget at the back of your mind."

Saw your smile, you may be different now, but somehow deep within, I feel satisfied. Though i miss your smile, i miss the quietness between the two of us whenever we meet up, pushing each other to talk first, laughing at our silly mistakes, miss the way you used to look at me with those eyes that could talk, those eyes that showed tenderness and love, those eyes that could no longer showed such expressions no more, the care and concern for me, everything that we've been through, i really missed it. However, after that smile i see on this familiar yet stranger's face, i felt the contentness in me. Though i had the urge to message you again, but what's the point of it, when i'll simply just be going through another start of nothingness, another of an endless conversation.
I'm not sure if that was a coincidence of seeing that happy side of you or not. Just as I was thinking of you when I was at the place, remembering the scene once again, when it all came flashing back into my mind, there I saw your smile, I don't know how i recognise that stranger look of your's, but trust me, i did. I guess, its a good thing that i saw you, because everything happens for a reason. & now that I'm satisfied, thank you.

I know you'll be gone one day.

2010-05-19T22:00:00.004+08:00

"It's funny, how when someone says they love you, you can't really feel it, but when they say they don't love you anymore, you can feel every ounce of what was drain out of your entire being."

I guess life is simply just like this. When you're learning to take trust in someone, and when you're about to trust that person wholeheartedly, life just come in crashing entirely on you, because that's when you realise you're too late, that person has already moved on, tearing up the one you call it, trust.

To me, at this very moment, i'm taking life easily, but that's only because of the very fact that I'm trying not to let myself think too much. I hate it, because, there's so many things happening in my life, and all i can ever do is to just sit back and watch.

However, despite all these chaos, there will be people there for me, and I'm grateful for that. & that's what keeps my life going too. (:

Its my burden, my regret.

2010-05-03T16:51:00.002+08:00

Shouldn't have led you on.

Knowing that you can't go back to the past, even though you wish you really could. & once you lost someone you loved, you'll never want to go through the tormenting pain again. Hence, I'll never be the same if we ever meet again.

Everything was just an act of impulse.

Please brain, please just focus on my textbooks, on my exams, please don't let me get all so affected once again. Please don't think too much.

All those things we once said,

2010-04-20T23:06:00.003+08:00

You got me going, but now you're leaving.

I'm sorry for what I said, the very moment i typed that out, i already knew its gonna be one of my biggest mistake. But just like every lesson that I never learnt, I did it once again. When something happens, my tears are filled to the brim of my eyes, yet I can never cry it out. Yet, when something happens to you, or just by the thought of it so, I can't help but break into tears.
Tell me, haven't you got me going?
Thanks for helping me to move on and let go. Yet I would like to thank you for making my heart crunch and break into pieces once more.
& now, I doubt I'll ever let it go.

Affected by your words.

2010-04-16T15:47:00.002+08:00

Yes, please.

I'm worn out. By ever single thing that has been happening. Be it the past, present & the future. I'm so affected that I can't breathe no more. Its like those things that has been happening are tied to my legs, making it difficult for me to surface from the water to breathe once again. I don't know how much longer can I take it and how I'm going to overcome this.

Girl, you know its really tiring, I know you know that. But what you said really affected me, "And I was fully blamed for this WHOLE situation ". Seriously, I did not blame you for the whole situation alright. & I kind of get the whole picture alr, I guess you still don't understand me fully, just like how I don't understand you now. Look, I get it alright. I'm sorry for not replying as I'm sick and tired of replying and there in the end, things come back to the same end-point. I'm tired of arguing, so are you. I wish we can put an end to all these misery but I know its gonna be tough and difficult, given the fact that we aren't willing to talk to each other at the moment. I really hope we can talk things out, be it face to face or through the phone. I hate talking things out through messages, esp one like this. Regardless of whatsoever, I think we should both focus on our midyearexam and think about the rest later. I hope its not too late to salvage our friendship then. Probably its a good way to take a break from one another too.

Lost in love.

2010-04-11T14:10:00.004+08:00

You're like the sunflower in my life for now.

Hey peeps, I'm at yvette neo's house right now. Had shao mu just now.
She treated me to bird nest and I find it ... weird. Haha. Had a lot of fun ytd, seriously. Went to palm garden for WG connect, though I was doing my chem half the time, but I still had my fun with Maygan, Viola, Jenny and gang. Walked from lot 1 to senja area with peeps after dinner. Thanks for the day people. (:

Loving secretly,

2010-04-09T18:55:00.005+08:00

I can't place it all behind.

To you:
I don't wish for this to drag on any longer. We used to be best buddies remember? I don't know why and how, but we're drifting away. It really saddens me, even though you don't feel it that way. But I can't force things either. You used to cheer me up whenever I was down. Now that I'm down once again, you aren't here anymore.

To another you:
Hey we used to be close sisters, now that I'm not able to see you that often anymore and cause of our quarrelment, are we really gonna stay this way forever? You know I don't wish to see us be like this. You have no idea how much I wish to pick up the phone and dial your number. I miss your voice, your laughter. Girl, I'm really sorry. This is the first time we had been silent for so long. I know you're not bothered anymore. I just want you to know, I'm still waiting for a chance. I'm really sorry for what I've done & said.

As you can see things are going so wrong, I don't wish for any other thing to happen and take place in my life. Freaking mid-year is just 20 days away. Sigh, just as much as I wanna have fun and enjoy, I need to study and do well.

I like being with/around you. I hope I'm not falling for you.

I'm losing myself by every minute.

2010-04-07T21:40:00.005+08:00

I hate the things that I do, the way I decide.

Things seems to be changing a lot in my life. Friends to strangers, strangers to friends. What's with my life? I've been slacking way too much. This ain't me, this ain't what I've promised and this ain't the outcome it should turn out since I've sacrificed so much. Soon, I'll be stepping down from band alr. Everything seems to be happening so fast. I know I'm gonna miss my secondary school life.
Tomorrow is speech day which means, the day we step down. Somehow I'm feeling sad. Probably because it reminds me that I'm graduating. Time passes so fast, its alr april. Soon its gonna be october. What if i never contact my secondary school mates once i graduate? What if, ... there's so many outcomes and possibilties. I know that in the end, everything is gonna be okay and if its not okay, its not the end. I've told this to someone, and now its my turn to use it back on me. I'm gonna take things slowly but at a pace that is stable too. I know I can do it, for I'm Jerlene. (:
Okay, I'm motivated again. Haha, wow. Self-motivating. I've gotta get a grip of myself too, its an important year, i'm not gonna let anything get in my way. I will control my feelings and emotion.
For this I have Jesus! :D

Down with a fever.

2010-03-24T11:06:00.004+08:00

Currently at home. Doctor gave me 3 days mc last night. Crazy isn't it? Haha, he said he suspect it is virus infection. Which means that dabian spread to me, sickening. I hardly fall ill, so when i fall sick, it will be kinda hard to recover fast. Hope this fever will go down by tomorrow as I can't miss my physics O's SPA. & I need to be able to focus too, really need to get well by tomorrow. Anw, can't wait for the upcoming saturdays. (: Okay, I'm gonna go continue my homework.

I'm unable to find you there anymore.

2010-03-18T17:33:00.007+08:00

I can't recognise you no more, you've changed so much.

To D :
It seriously hurts to see and to know. How I wish I was kept in the dark and not know how you are doing. Was it my fault that it really turned out this way? I can't praise myself for that should I? Neither will I push all the blame towards you.
Hope that you won't continue living your life this way, cause you're not gonna be able to continue having fun very soon. Please buck up. All I can do now is to support you mentally and morally. How I wish I'm able to enter your dream and give you two big tight slaps to wake you up and let you see the big picture.
Its alright if you don't wish to see me or acknowledge me cause I don't wish to see you anymore either. Though I think back to the good times. However, I can't stay in the past as much as I want to do so.
D, please change for the better and not the worst. You've heard this from me so many times alr. So please, stop walking down the wrong path.
Forever & Always,
your past.

What if I want to be more than just friends?

2010-03-16T18:08:00.004+08:00

The truly painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained.

Why don't I feel the happiness I'm suppose to feel, yet it felt like the smile I smiled was just for a show to not let others know what is felt deep inside. Oh well, was dragged to subway for lunch at 10 plus in the morning thanks to that Andrea Ho and her accomplice, Gwee Jiaxuan! Irritating people, make me feel hungry so fast.
Went for physics SPA and slacked awhile with yvette and hweewen. I've not touch on my homework much. I said I wouldn't procrastinate, but I'm doing so AGAIN. This is bad bad bad. D: Sigh, I'm not feeling motivated enough, someone motivate me! D:
I'm going out to meet Ruth now. Won't be doing homework all the way till 8 at night. I've to focus more alr.

I think I'm falling for you.

2010-03-14T22:41:00.003+08:00

However, i bet this will be just another passing phase.

Motivational camp was just over. Lasted for 3 days, no sleepovers.
First and the last day was the best I must say. (:
Everyone was so emotional at some point of time. I was too, over the wrong matters though. Well, hope we will all still be motivated after this camp and will continue to strive to our very best. So what if we have no life now? I don't mind. I'll have a life after O's and that's motivation enough. Tomorrow is the start of holidays, but how come it does not feel like a holiday? Probably, its not meant to be one for me. D:
Oh well, to continue on the camp, had ptm on friday night.
Gosh, let me tell you, I was totally freaking out that very evening.
I'm not sure why either. Could not stop my emotions that very session when my mum was talking to some of the teachers. Wanted to cry as I felt the stress in me. In the end, I vented on my mum and I'm really sorry for that, mummy.
Its good to have stress I guess, but not when I'm pushing myself so hard yet at the same time, my mind is not listening to what I said. The motivational camp covered on that, which is, we have to conquer our own brain and tell it what to do, instead of giving in to the laziness and the temptations. It isn't worth it.
Well, I'm going to sleep soon and wake up tomorrow morning for a run. Let's see how powerful my determination is. (: Goodnight everybody.

Never gonna be the same no more.

2010-03-11T17:41:00.002+08:00

A heartbreak is always a blessing from God. It may be the worst nightmare that keeps me from crying in the middle of the night but it is God’s way of letting me realize that He saved me from the wrong one.

Once again, quoted from Jo's tumblr. (:

Things haven't been going smoothly for me. I'm lacking behind in my homework and own revision. In fact, I've not even touched on it. Plus, certain things are never the same as before alr. Neither has it been improving. I've really tried my best, I'm not sure why things are ending up this way too. Guess I just have to get use to it soon.

I'm moving on.

2010-03-06T14:56:00.002+08:00

'It's hard to get over people, and I mean really get over them. You can start having feelings for some other person, but it doesn't mean you're over them. It just means you're moving on.'

Quoted that from Jo's tumblr. Well, I think that is really true.

I owe you.

2010-02-27T21:28:00.003+08:00

Okay, maybe not.

500th post! :D

2010-02-26T22:05:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, I really wonder if we didn't had that arguement.

Finally! Ct1 is over. (okay, at least most of it)
Today was the horrible. Chemistry & Geography. Totally insanity!
Had a hard time memorising and understanding. I still feel that I did not study hard enough. I hope this won't happen for O's. :/
Greenridgean under the stars was fun! Now then I realise there are hot guys beneath the school uniform :/ Haha, I sound so sick. Eeeeeee!
There's CIP tomorrow, and on sunday is my date that I promised someone long time ago. Can't wait, right partner? ^^ Haha.

Hey, soul sister!

2010-02-22T19:01:00.005+08:00

Sometimes, I really wonder,
what would it be like w/o all my sisters, who are always there for me.

Happy Birthday, Mummy & Shimin! :D

Unable to forget.

2010-02-21T17:46:00.002+08:00

I'm glad to say that you're officially gone. (:
Since when did you even left? I don't know, all I can say is that you ain't taking up this space in my heart no more.
You should be happy to know that, shouldn't you?
So, this is for you.

你最近还好吗?

2010-02-17T18:44:00.005+08:00

昨天远了明天还长
回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗?
Every rain that drops, shows your love.
However, it will evaporate someday.

So what.

2010-01-31T15:44:00.004+08:00

Never take life seriously because we'll lose it all someday.

1 month has been wasted this new year.
& I've yet to be used to this new year, I miss the past badly but I don't yearn for it to come back too. I wanna carry on this stranger's life of mine for everything seems to be unreal.
A smile I put on my face everyday, deep inside I feel happy. However, when I reach home, everything seems to sad & solemn.
This ain't the kind of life I'm searching for. There isn't much time to wasted too, yet I can hardly breathe.
I've changed.

A ordinary life is all I ask for.

2010-01-10T18:57:00.003+08:00

I wanna be worry-free.

Totally not in the mood to do anything. Not my homeworks,

not my own room chores. This just sucks.

Oh right people, my phone is confiscated officially once again.

So please do not contact my number. Anything, contact my house no.

Just watch the first episode of "Hi my sweetheart".

Don't have enough time to watch the other episodes.

I promise I'll be back after 2 weeks! :D Heh.

Okay, gonna go get something to eat before washing my uniform & shoes and before tidying up my room. Haven't eaten a proper meal since morning.

Yesterday, totally had fun with the poly's open house.

However, only went to SP & NP as we were officially dead after finishing at NP. I was dead tired man, plus carrying 3 bags. Haha! So kuku la.

Went to church after that. Sermon was great. People cried.

We must live a purity life for our God is holy. (:

Had supper with two extras. Home with Ruth Ho, sat at the bus-stop and chatted again. Haha, our only time to talk throughout the whole week.

Okay, really gotta go. My stomach is giving problems now.

Bye people. Can't stop anticipating for school tomorrow. Am not looking forward for the coming exams and homework deadlines. I don't know why either.

Exhausting week..

2010-01-08T22:21:00.003+08:00

Worn out.

This whole week is totally exhausting. Math math and more math.

Plus other subjects pilling up. Every teacher expects us to study for their subjects, I just don't have the time to do so.

I know, if I don't have the itme to do so, how come I have the time to be here right? I'm simply taking a day off after being so tired.

Gonna start again tomorrow. I wanna congragulate my neighbour, Sofiah and her now newly husband, Jonah ( If I'm not wrong.)

Thanks to their wedding, I've managed a break today.

If not, I doubt I'll ever give in to my laziness.(Another NewYear's resolution)

Doubt I'll be joining the 4e1-ians tomorrow for the poly's open house.

I need to catch up on my studies. Maybe after my studies and all. (:

I'm really stressed up over whether to drop my subject or not.

I wanna drop phy, but my mum says its important. Chem is important too.

Sigh, I don't know what to do. I just think that I don't have enough time.

Or maybe I'm not managing my time well enough.

Mr Victor Lee & other teachers kept telling us about such stuff.

But I'm really not sure. I keep pushing the blame to my cca, but I know that ain't the solution to everything too. I need to find time.

Okay, I'm going to sleep now. I'm super tired already.

Bye guys. Today ended off well for a week like this.

Thanks boy & my Heavenly Father for allowing this to happen.

PS: Shhhhhh, I can't let you know I miss you. (:

Flashbacks.

2010-01-05T19:46:00.004+08:00

Reminscing.

Well, its already the second day of school. So far so good, I guess.

Sisters are the ones that makes my day in school. (:

Haven't fallen asleep in any classes yet. Its a good thing.

Kinda one of my new year's resolution. Heh. However, I almost fall asleep during certain classes today. Esp, physics again. D: Sorry, Mr Chong.

Okay, gonna go do homework and try to study asap.

I've got 4 test coming up already. Bye!

Thank you OYJH & Pierre Ong for listening. :D

Suppressing the pains.

2010-01-03T21:09:00.002+08:00

School starts tomorrow! D:
Man, this sucks. How I wish this nightmare ain't coming true.
School starts = sec 4 life = O levels = More studying = lifeless.
I can link way more things when school starts.
However it'll be a total waste of time. Oh well, I have not packed my bag.
I've yet to iron my uniform. I've yet to re-file all my stuff.
I'm so lay back la. D: But I believe many people have yet to do so too.
So, I guess its pretty normal. (:

Am suppose to meet several people today.
People like, Ruth Ho, Yvette Neo, Andrea, Hweewen, Ahma, Janis, Weihui.
However, thanks to my laziness & some of the others, it did not took place.
Have been reading Katie Weldon book 2 for the whole day.
Gonna pass it to Ruth Ho tomorrow. I'm such a good friend. ^^
Chatted with dabian this afternoon. Miss her lots.
We got to hear Rosa's voice too. & yes, we'll all be seeing her tomorrow! :D
So gonna drill her with many many questions. Heh.
Okay, I'm gonna log off this laptop already.
As Jo, Jake & the gayish OYJH owl logged off on me.
So yeah, bye peeps! D: Dreading for tomorrow to come.

The perfect day.

2010-01-01T13:49:00.004+08:00

Towards a new beginning.

Yesterday was the most perfect day I've ever had in days.

Reached Jusco (Malaysia) around 2 in the afternoon.

Stopped at the sushi store first, it was delicious! :D Heh.

Was there with Mummy & Mummy's two friends.

They are fun to be with. (: I bet we spent hours in the shoe shop.

There are like 6 shoe shops being side by side on the same level can.

I got myself a heels, totally a first time. Haha.

As the adults kept looking at shoes, I was totally getting bored.

So, I went to look around myself. Wanted to get a bag, but did not.

Continued shopping at F.O.S. The things there are like cheap.

Got 6 tops from there. Heh, like I said, they're cheap.

Went to get a school shoe on my own as the 3 ladies were looking at glasses.

Bought a Levi's jeans thanks to mummy too. I'm soooo happy la.

Had dinner at a restaurant that has 'grizzling/sizzling' & 'stone'.

Haha, I forgot the name of it already. Aunty Alice treated us to it.

The food there is totally awesome. I had tom yum and tried some beefs.

Well, thank you 3 ladies for the shopping trip. I really enjoyed myself.

Reached back Singapore and asked Weihui, Ruth & OYJH where they were.

Apparently, they did not go celebrate. Wanted to go meet OYJH & Ruth Ho.

However, I was too tired to move after all the shopping.

In the end we talked on the phone. Haha, cool eh? Countdown tgt.

After the conference, watched 'Sky Captain and The day after tomorrow' with daddy, however, I slept halfway as I was too tired. Heh.

Woke up at only 12pm today. Had a perfect dream. Awww.

If only I could remember the face and the name. D: Heh.

Nevermind, in the times to come, I believe it will come.

Okay, gotta go. Bye!

Goodbye year 2009.

2009-12-30T19:21:00.006+08:00

I can't let go of this year, I want time to stop now.

Just came back from camp! :D It was awesome.

Okay, at least for the last 2 days, during the secondary 1 orientation.

Syakir & Iman damn horny la and Iman is a hongster! :D

Annabel, Rachel & me were like using phones and eating during nights.

On the 3rd day, we played captain's ball, it was the best game among the rest. After the barbecue, we danced the friendship dance. Seriously man, my partners are all horny but I had my fun. They were all funny in one way or another.

Totally awesome. (: Last day, which is today was better.

As I didn't take any class, I was free to travel about. Had lots of fun playing Captain ball, Basketball & Badminton.

The best part was being neither on the 2nd floor or the 3rd tgt with Annabel, Syakir, Iman, Gavin and others. Haha, 1 lesson learnt, guys are freaky.

They keep throwing the basketball to get a soccer ball and a rugby ball as they were both stuck. They keep scaring me and bel. Haha.

Carvin & Aaron also kept making me laugh a lot. Oh, and thanks to the sec 1s, my voice is super sexy now. Don't believe, ask any camper, yvette, weihui or OYJH. Its like my voice is breaking.

Okay, I'm super tired. Gonna go bath & sleep. Don't feel like eating.

Might be going Malaysia tomorrow, so I need my sleep! :D

Goodnight people and have fun celebrating for the upcoming year.

I'm dreaming of you again.

2009-12-27T10:42:00.003+08:00

If its meant to be, please let it wait.

Hey peeps, I've had a very Blessed Christmas! :D

So, went to Shimin's house & Jo's house as said.

Went to church ytd. It was fun la. Stupid OYJH. He's evil! D:

Heartless stupid evil old owl. Hmmphhhhhhh! Heh.

Went to lot 1 for supper again. However only kor ate.

The rest of us girls went to shop. (:

Cotton on was still open for the first time.
Regina got her top & I got my slippers. I'm happy. Heh, thanks kor!

We're going shopping again later at plaza. Before my camp.

Today totally doesn't feels like a sunday but a monday.

Cause there's camp! D: I don't wanna goooo, I'm tired.

Just came back from TNG camp, now got leadership camp. -.-

Sianzzxzxzxzcxzczxxcxz! Plus must take band uni & sch uni tooo.

Siao la, okayokay. I gtg before I'm late.

Have fun missing me again. Heh.

Goodbye, lets stop all these hurt.

2009-12-25T09:39:00.006+08:00

God came to live with us so that we could live with Him.

Merry Christmas everybody! :D

In the little village of Bethlehem

There lay a Child one day;

And the sky was bright with a holy light

O'er the place where Jesus lay.

'Twas a humble birthplace but O how much

God gave to us that day;

From the manger bed what a path has led,

What a perfect, holy way.

Alleluia! O how the angels sang.

Alleulia! How it rang!

And the sky was bright with a holy light,

'Twas the birthday of a King.

Was suppose to go church today to listen to Pastor Edmund's last preaching before leaving for a year. At least that's what I heard.

Well, woke up and saw many messages and realized that I've fallen asleep last night without knowing it and while waiting for messages.

As my head was in pain, I decided not to go and Maygan was feeling sick too. Haha, camp bug huh? Well, I miss camp though.

I missed what I saw from the corner of my eye, I missed the night sky.

I missed the fun we all shared and missed getting to each other better.

Honestly, I didn't really feel anything from this camp, but after it all, I really believed it impacted me a lot.

People out here, Jesus loves you. He cares for you, each and everyone. He died for you & I so that we can be with Him, though we sin and hurt Him.

Who in the world will ever do such a thing? That sacrificial love and unconditional love that He showed us and gave us. Who will ever do such a thing?

Imagine that pain He went through, creating us yet we banished Him from us. Yet, He died and rose again. Assuring us that He is our creator.

Lord, I just want you to know that I love you too. However I know it can never be compared to that amount of love you loved me.

This TNG camp reminded me how much God loved me. And now, I want you guys to know that God loves you too. He even knows the number of hair that is on your head. He knows what's going on in your life because He created you. He love us for who we are.

Well, I'm going to different houses later. One of them is Shimin's and another is Jolene's to celebrate the birth of our Lord 2000 years ago.

I just want you all to know that the true meaning of Christmas isn't about Santa Claus, Christmas Tree, Lightings or Reindeer. On this Christmas day, Christ was born to give us a present unlike any other, which is 'eternal life'.

I'm sorry for my doings and what I said. I guess its time and I should've seen it coming. Maybe I already did. It just isn't how it is suppose to be.

I'm back! :D

2009-12-24T15:46:00.006+08:00

I know this love is drifting further away.

Finally, I'm back from TransformationUnityRealNew beginning camp!

Gosh, it was tiring. D: 5 hours of sleep for the past 3 nights.

And the games were all energy draining. First night was havoc due to the police&thief and candle games. It was fun but really tiring as we had to run & hide.

During police&thief, Jianhao, Tzungern, Kat, Weihui & me were hiding at dark corners. (we were the thieves) Out came a little girl who is a police. She walked towards us but we just freeze on the spot at first. Thanks to Tzungern, we all had to run due to him running away first. -.- But little girl only, so didn't get caught. (:

Had scavenger's hunt during the second day. Our group called the lobsters, were stuck at the first clue alr. But we managed to earn ourselves 2600 points.

Third day, we had station games. This was fun. Especially the captain's lodge. It was something like captain ball, just that the things we were throwing and catching ain't a ball but toothpaste, powder and water balloons.

It was obviously a dirty & messy game. I had toothpaste on my hand, powder on my shirt & shorts, water on my leg. Amos, Aaron & Samuel were seriously good at ball games. Vanessa & I just had to intersect and throw to one of them. Weihui & Eunice were tall, thus defending. They're good too. Had lots of fun during that station.

There're many station but captain's lodge is the best. The obstacle course caused weihui some embarrasing and painful moments. HAHA! :D During the night, chatted with Maygan a lot. Talked about personal stuff too. Love that girl man! (: Hahahah, the Bs & Rs. Our little inside joke. Ohoh, 'bloop bloop' too! :D

On the Fourth day (today), woke up super late and we all rushed to wash up and packing of bags. Had lots of camwhore. (: Sang our lungs out during praise time.

There are many things that had happened at the camp. This is just a summary and exciting moments of it.

For personal and smaller details, come and ask me. I'll be more than delighted to tell you. & I know who are the KPOs who will ask once they read this. ^^

I shall keep you guys in suspense in the meantime.

I totally need to catch up with my sleep already. Bye peeps!

I love lobsters & Zs! I love my Heavenly Father & TURN camp! :D

Amos pee, Aaron peng, Celestine Ong, Eunice Tan, John pang, Palister, Samuel Phua (GL), Sophia, Vanessa Ow & Lee Weihui. Thank you guys for these memories! (:

This Christmas is filled with hope & love.

2009-12-20T19:18:00.003+08:00

I pray for this love to be true.

Yesterday was fun, it was a sad day up till I meet the girls. (:
Thanks to Ruth & Yvette for waiting for me. Weihui, rosa, bel, andrea, Jo, Felice, Shimin, Peiyi, Zhengzhong & Daryl for understanding too.
Church was once again fun. Haha, Nicole & Ruth Ho come disturb me.
I really had fun and enjoyed myself with them. The pain was forgotten for that period time. We went to the playground opposite church to play.
Hahhaa, totally fun la. Me & yvette had our fun pushing and driving people nuts. Zz was the best! Hahahha! Who ask him, serve him right. Hmmph. :/
We all had our turn in the round-a-bout except weihui due to her no mood. Suck la she, never sit on it. However, its a good thing too as we won't have to cover our ears when she scream loudly at us. Heh.
Jo & Felice didn't want too, probably they're having bimbo moments. ^^
Got on the bus. Sickening bel, weihui, peiyi, shimin, daryl & zz.
Cope seat for themselves and not us. But I did have my fun squating.
Hahah, it was fun disturbing Andrea and having wild thoughts of the emergency door open, sucking me & vet out and us pulling everyone along. LOL.
Went to mac for supper. Ate only ice-cream as I was totally broke.
And for another reason, I didn't have the appetite to eat at all.
Chatted with yvette, when Jo came out. Bel & Ruth came out soon too. Not long later Andrea walked out and said funny stuff. Haha, typical drea.
Homed not long later as it was super late and we all thought it was still early. Guess we really enjoyed ourselves huh. (:
Made someone worried and I'm so sorry. Heehee.
Reached home only at 12.30 if I'm not wrong. Thanks girls for all the fun and laughters. It was totally awesome for a Christmas celebration! :D
Today, woke up early. Weihui & Peiyi were late la, made me and shimin to wake up so early and wait. Bused down to woodlands & church.
Service was great! Love is ... love is everything (in my opinion)
However, pastor matt said that, love is God because God is love.
Had lunch at BPP's kfc with weihui & peiyi. Came home and sleep.
Had nightmare and I didn't dare to go back to sleep. Called weihui and I was totally scared and afraid that something will happen.
Used com and had steamboat for dinner with family. (:
So here I am now, I've to go pack my bag for tomorrow's camp.
Miss me people. ^^ Its a 4 days 3 night camp. Its gonna be longgggg.

Love hurts.

2009-12-19T11:00:00.003+08:00

So much for all the happy ending.

Doesn't mean that you love someone means you two are meant to be.
People goes away, but love will never fade away.
I've said my prayer, it came true. It ain't just a mere coincidence right?
Everything happens for a reason, isn't it?
I'm lost, I'm confuse. I don't know what I want and I don't know what to do.
Lord, please guide me today, have Your way in me. Because it hurts.
And I know you know how painful it is. Behaving like an insomic.
Eyes hurting terribly from all the tears that flowed out.
My head hurts, my leg hurts, my arms hurt. Everything hurts.
It feels like it is ripping my whole torso out. What exactly is this?
Arghhhhh, this sucks la. Ass.

Daydreaming about you.

2009-12-17T14:55:00.006+08:00

I'll be ready whenever you are.

Have been way too bored for the past 2 days. I know my fav girls knows why. Heh, I'm missing weihui alot too. Awww, when is she gonna come back. ):
Eh vet, drama cannot kill time one, you bluff me. I tried and it didn't work. I was practically trying to focus on the screen. Hahah, yesterday was the worst.
Totally rotting at home, calling yvette & ruth every now and then.
Tuesday was okay as I had yvette to come and accompany me after SO long la! Ruth came over after accompanying rosa too.
So the 3 of us chatted and all.
Had fun once again, but vet had to go after awhile. Anw, I hope vet loved my birthday card to her. Heh, plus my secret. ^^ At least ruth saw it too. Haha!
Ruth ate dinner at my house and I called peiqing out for a walk at the pasar malam. At least Ruth knows my childhood bestest friend now. (:
Saw weekang while walking. Missed him a lot too, that small kid. Saw yvette neo also with her family again. Haha, funny uhs she.
Accompanied Ruth to wait for the bus after that.
Today, was slacking the whole time. Woke up, went for my breakfast with mummy. Shopped around at the market place with her.
Came home and went back to my bed, daydreamed the whole time.
At least it killed time rather then doing nothing. Was about to help mummy with her work, when she asked me to go down to the bank with her. Haha.
Do this do that and its already 3 now. Half the day gone and I'm glad.
Shall help her out with her work now and wait for Ruth Ho's arrival.
Just talked on the phone with Jo too, poor girl. You can do it! :D
Rosa too, you'll have my support always. You still have me as a boyf.
Haha, okayokay. Hope this weekend can go as planned. (crosses finger)

Awesome monday!

2009-12-15T13:26:00.006+08:00

Beautiful day, leaving behind beautiful memories.

Started the day off by meeting some stupid person. -.-
Irritating, haha. Make me wait soooo long. Haha, but nevermind. Give me more time to prepare. Stupid people mixes well with stupid person. Heh.
I'm really glad we meetup, after soooo long la. Had fun alright. (:
Haha, hope to meetup soon again, though its abit impossible and overboard.
Well, will be thinking of you when you're mia. Haha!
Okay, so I went to meet ruth and Jolene. Then we trained down to meet bel.
Poor bel, thought she late then cab here, when she's the earliest. Haha.
Took 966 and nicole was in it too! :D
Bused down all together and headed to east coast park.
Sickening Maygan, she's the longest la! Hahah, but ohwell.
They had lunch at mac, while me and Ruth just sit there and cope fries.
Haha, smart people eh. ^^ Ate and went to get bikes.
Cycled for quite a distance and did our Dj's at a shelter. Totally had fun sharing and discussing though we kept sidetracking. Haha.
Went to 17 again! :D Heh, played and looked for clams, as according to Nicole, "I came here last time and caught lots of clams leh! I think it was 10 years ago!" Hahah, can you believe it? She uhs, haha.
Played for awhile and went to send Maygan and Cherrie back.
We went for dinner at subway. But jolene, bel & ruth bs us and went for mac again! Can you believe it, mac. Twice a day.
Hahah, had loads of fun chatting and all, right nicole? We know your secret now. *snickers* Heheheh. ^^
It was really fun. Went back to the beach to play again. While waiting for Jolene and bel to come back from the toilet which they said its going to be awhile, which felt like forever since 79 planes passed by.
We counted alright! Haha, nah kidding. Only 6-7 planes. Haha! :D
But once again, only me, ruth and nicole went down to the waters there.
Cause apparently, jolene and bel are scared of the sand. LOL. Heh. ^^
Had fun jumping about and on nicole's foot! Hahaha, but the Ruth and Nicole kick water at me. Made me became pokadots. -.- Sickening.
Haha, as nicole shorts were like wet, she was like telling Jo & bel. 'My pants aren't wet, its cause of the lights you know, err.. yeah.' Hahah, just to get them down. Haha!
We went to the toilet to change and all. As my pants were wet due to the seawater, I just happened to tell nicole and ruth, "My pants ain't went, I feel dry."
And there come Jolene (extra) saying, "eh jer, your pants wet ah?"
And everyone started laughing away. Hahah, thanks la Jo. -.-
Hahah, reached home at 10. Was so tired that I bath and slept alr.
Okay, here's a photo of us all! :D

Why did I fall for you?

2009-12-13T13:52:00.002+08:00

New Moon!

2009-12-08T17:34:00.004+08:00

A fantastic movie! :D

New moon was totally awesome! Heh, I'll grade it 9/10.
Sorry girls for watching first. Heh, too excited alr.
Dabian is back too, woohoo! :D

OMG!

2009-12-07T17:23:00.003+08:00

Saranyu Suwannasoonthon.

That guy up there, is the saxaphonist player in Nontri Orchestra Winds.
& he's the best! :D He plays super duper well la. Hahhaa.
So, went for their concert yesterday and they did played very well.
He's like really good cannnnnnnnnnnn. Too bad, he is 27. D:
Awwww, sad right. Heh.
Okay, I've nothing to post already. Cause my main thing is him.
Oh, I just realise Nickhun is cute. (: okay, bye! :D

This is it ! :D

2009-12-05T10:37:00.004+08:00

Okayokay, Ruth Ho & Weihui are coming back today already!
Woohooohooooooooo! Alright, I need to calm down. Hahaha.
Just a couple more of minutes and I expect to hear my phone ringing!
Eeeeek, can't wait for them to return la! I miss them soooo much! D:
Hahaha, I wanna see if the short one had grown taller alr or not. XD
I'm too excited, lalallalalalalas. &&& there's church today too! :D
Hehehe, my brother's birthday is tomorrow and the concert too.
So many events happening this weekend. Heh.
Okay, gtg eat my food and wait for the phone to ring. Bye! :D

Band workshop :D

2009-12-04T20:12:00.005+08:00

I know I'll find you at the ends of the rainbow.

Sweetlove came my house yesterday! :D Chatted and caught up with each other's life. Girl, thanks for listening to me. I wanna see you soon, this saturday alright!

Today, had band and a thai band came over to our school to teach us more and help us in our music. I admit that I totally dreaded for today, and not really interested in this thai band in some way or another.
However, it totally turned out the other way and I totally thank God for it! Its a miracle that it turned out to be fun, keeping me froming sleeping. Heh.
As I was saying, I woke up super early to find out I'm the earliest out of the other two people I was meeting for breakfast at mac.
Hahaha, shimin was late for like 8 mins and peiyi, 20 mins. Hahaha!
That small girl walk in (still in a daze) and said hello to me. Haha, she's cute alright. Hope that she'll be coming church with shimin this sat though.
We headed for band all sleepy and grumpy, complaining and wanting to turn back towards home. Hahaha, we were that tired alright.
So, did warm up and all. & finally the band came! Did some tuning together and they started playing the Alvarmar Overture. I must say, they are reaaaalll good!
Fantastic man! Plus it was their first time seeing the score, cool right?
Had sectionals with them. At first, when one of the guys spoke to me, telling me what I should do, I couldn't understand. But at last, I did. :D
Had exchanges after that and were playing together alr.
Me and Dijie kept talking and giggling. Hahhaa, funny junior I have. (:
Had loads of fun. Stupid xinfang tell me disgusting things, make me wanna puke.
Anw, I'm going to the sunday's concert in esplanade and I can't believe it.
Hahha, okay. Gotta go! :D

Keai's outing !

2009-12-02T20:04:00.006+08:00

You're the one in a million that lit me up.

So, I went out with Jolene today. :D Good to see her back!
Life was miserable w/o anyone.. just kidding. Haaha, it wasn't that bad.
Yup, so I went out with Jolene, had lots of fun.
Chatted and kicked some butts. *Thumbs up* Nah, I was just kidding about the kicking butts. Heh, but we totally had fun!
Yeah yeah, whatever. So, we took my shoes back, went to vivo and did window shopping (at least for me) & went to her house.
Okay, end of story. :D
I'm just kidding again. (: My date ain't that boring of course! Haha.
So, we were complaining that the bus ride was freaking long and some people are really funny. They know each other yet purposely sit far from each other like they hate each other. They they suddenly laugh loudly all tgt. LOL, crazy right? Haha.
We went to bought the bubble tea at chinatown due to Jolene's continuous begging. :/ Hahaha, but I must admit it was nice. (:
Collected my shoes and we trained down to vivo for wondow shopping.
We were saying that after our O's, we will work at the shops we want to. & our pay wouldn't be money, but the clothings and accessories. Haha.
Walked around till my legs were aching badly and Jolene was like, 'Eh, you no stamina one leh. Liddat also tired liao. Tsk.'
Irritating right? Can't believe it la, ask me run, I can. But shopping for hours, 'No, thank you. (With a disgusted face. ) '
So, never ask me to shop unless I ask you. But I doubt so, cause I'll ask weihui. Heh, cause she's like the only one that will shout tired before me.
Yvette, dabian will say tired same timing as me. Haha, low stamina us! :D
Anw, we reached Jolene's house at like 3? Watched the show, 'definitely, maybe!' Heh, the lil girl is like cute! :DD Touching story anw. Hahah.
Borrowed 'PS: I love you' from her too. Wonder when I'll return her next. Hahaha, I remembered the mean girls. ^^
Ohwell, pretty boring right, our date? That's what you think! *Winks
Hmmmm, I pray that Ruth & Weihui will be enjoying in Malaysia.
And that, nothing drastic will happen too. Come back soon girls, I miss you!
Stupid yvette neo, cannot make it for my date. DDD:
Still say she'll always be available for me. Yeah, right! (tone of sarcasim)
I miss you too girl, see you soon alright! Have fun with Andrea Ho.
&&& Andrea ho, have fun in malaysia! :D

Boring life.

2009-11-30T18:52:00.005+08:00

Memories/reminisce.

Hmmmm, life is pretty boring these days. Without my usual people, like : Lee Weihui who always comes out to safe me from boredom.
Ruth Ho who always find me out to play and talk and all.
Jolene Tan who always bother listening to me talking craps (not forgetting I've to endure listening to her craps too! :D )
Sigh, its really boring without them la. That yvette neo also never jio me, always only know how to assume things. Hmmph! D:
Luckily Jolene Tan Xin Yi coming back tomorrow alr! :D However, Ruth Ho & Weihui coming back only on the 5th. Sianzxzxcxzccxzcxzcxzxczxz.
Its totally boring la. Either I watch tv, use com or or or ... study. DD:
Sad life manxzczxzxzxzxzxcxzczxzxzx. I can't wait for sat to come again!
Though its only monday. Heh, but saturdays is always the best la! :DDD
Okay, so I'm going to patiently wait for Ruth ho to call me tonight, and await for Jolene Tan Xin Yi that princess's arrival. Lalalas. (:
Meanwhile, I would like to thank that nocturnal owl for accompanying me.
Heh, bye people! ^^

I'm thinking of you again & this ain't good,
cause I don't wanna start all this again.

Emptiness

2009-11-29T18:54:00.003+08:00

I MISS MY FRIENDS.

Sad life. D:

2009-11-27T22:30:00.006+08:00

Brighten up my mood, please!

Sighhhh, what a day today is. All I did was stay home and sulk!
But things change when I went to visit my da yi ma in NUH.
Cause... I went to meet yvette neo and andrea ho after that! Woohooo!
So yeah, I went to meet them for dinner at JP.
Had mac for dinner. Mannn, I'm gonna be fat! Going out with those two can kill! They keep forcing me to eat, even when I can't alr. D:
Went to walk around, me and andrea wanted to get cheese cake for her.
She pay, I play! :D Hahahha, funnaye.
So, conclusion for the day is, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to dearest yvette neo, Happy Birthday to youuuuuuu!
Hahhaa, happy birthday idiotic sweetheart. Love you way too much.
Hope that we all make your day today, by celebrating all at diff timing.
Heh, 15 already uhs, please be more mature and grow up! :D
And please also know that you ain't innocent already. :DDDDDDD
And and and, stay pretty though you always say you're not.
And and and and and, you this CAL, study hard horrr & stop working!
Heh, still, I love you! :D (Only for now. :/) Heeheeeheeeee.
Okay, this is like long. All the 'H' & 'A' at the very beginning of the sentence.

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I agree with what weihui said. Sighhhh, I really hope not.
But still, I know its the truth. Sad sad sad, sad life. DDDDDDDDD:
Ohwell, just have to wait for another 7 more days.
&&& though all my friends bangseh me tomorrow,
many many people want pei me go okay! Blehhhhhhh!
Irritating friends I have. DDD: Hmmph, but still, have fun people! Make sure you girls get me something each to compensate my sadness okay!
Ruth Ho, Lee WeiHui &&& Jolene Tan Xin Yi ! I'll rmb you ... for tmr!
Somemore say is my fault for leaving you all behind and I went Turkey.
Where got such thing de, to the extent all leave same day to same country some more! Hmmph! Some friends I have here man.
Hahaha, kidding la. But seriously peeps, HAVE FUN! :D
No fun, don't come back, understand!
I wonder if OYJH meant what he said. Hmmmm, might think about it. :/
Teeheeheem if he sees this, I'm dead. Heh.
Okay, gotta go! Once again, happy birthday yvette neo.
Ohoh, and Hedy too! Happy Birthday you two! :D

Malaysia...

2009-11-26T23:08:00.005+08:00

My friends are leaving me and are all going Malaysia. -.-

Some friends they turn out to be. Leaving me all at the same timing.
Hmmph! Hahhaa, kidding. But seriously man, like Whoa!
Firstly, Dabian is having her Missonary camp in Malaysia.
Just now I called rosa, wanting to meet her tomorrow, and I found out she was on her way to Malaysia too! Crap right? :/
Then, Jolene told me she's going Penang on saturday.
And apparently, Ruth and weihui are both going Malaysia too.
So guess what, I'll be left all alone this saturday for church.
Cause Annabel should be too tired to come too anw. D:
I really hope yvette neo can come laaaaaaaa.
Worse come to worse, it'll be my benefit too. Heh, if you get what I mean. ^^
Okay, so I went to meet Andrea that Assy Ho today for lunch!
Our lunch was romantic la, the lights went off 3 times. Haaha!
Shop around and Jolene came. Went to meet Ruth Ho to pass her things.
Went to school for my dental appointment, while assy ho & bimbo waited.
After that, we chit chatted for quite some time and at last, they went home.
Hope that Lee Weihui will agree to our study date before she leaves.
Heh, I wanna see her for the last time. Sobs... LOL.
Okay, I wanna go watch American Next top model alr. Bye! :D

Band camp!

2009-11-25T16:40:00.011+08:00

Fifteen.

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way

It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
"You know, I haven't seen you around before"'

Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be outta here as soon as we can

And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

I love this song. Its an old song, yes. But no matter how old a song is, it'll stay forever as meaningful as it is.
This song is totally meaningful to me. At first, I only love it cause its nice.
However, only up till today that I've gotten the true meaning of it.
Well, now that I'm fifteen. Heh. (smiles widely)

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Okay, now let's talk about my mia for 3 days. Lemme say, cool ! :D
Hahhah, I guess everyone will feel this way when we're a senior.
Its real fun man. I'll never forget those juniors who poured cold water on me.
Jun guan and Justin, right? Hmmmmm... (evil plan.) Hahaha!
Hahah, it was really funny during games. And at night, even better!
I'll never forget my experience, sleeping next to Koh Xinfang.
That girl is ... insane. If you don't drain her energy out, you won't be able to sleep.
Hahaha. And I called yvette neo during the nightime.
See yvette neo, I'm such a good friend! (that's because I can't sleep, heh.)
During the second night, it was the official promotion and step down night.
Seniors were all so high that night. They even told us ghost stories. -.-
LOL. I totally had fun during this camp. I even remembered tell Gracie and the rest, it was the first time I folded my sleeping bag nicely done.
Hahaha, totally a fun camp. & probably that's cause I'm stepping down soon.
Mr yeo was also really funny during this camp.
And thanks for the oreo Mcflurry, sirrrrrr! :D

Ohright! Dabian called me when she came back and while I was in band.
That irritating girl who left me all alone and went to have fun! Hmmph!
Hahaha, but I heard she had lots of fun. Good for her alright! :D
She's probably in malaysia now spreading the gospel or helping around.
Dabian! Hope you're having lots of fun during this missionary trip, (L)ya!
& when you're back, you'll suffer from trying to catch up with us for Alvamar!
Heh, too bad! (sticks out tongue) Hahahha, I feel so evil now. Ohwell. Heeheee.
I totally can't wait for saturday to come. The first reason ... its obvious. Heh.
Second is that, its the day after yvette neo's birthday!
Which also means, friday is her birthday plus its a public holiday.
So, if she's gonna go work, I'll kill Jocee first then her.
Cause this job thingy is all Jocee's plan. Hmmmmph! Heh, jkjk. ^^
Ohoh, that Ah Ruth and weihui is leaving for malaysia soon.
Bon voyage girls, though I wish to see you two before you girls leave.
But its okay, heh. Have fun there, but don't forget about me alright!

Okayokay, I've gotta calm down. Its a wordy post today, and I've to separate this lenghty post into 2 sections and then another 3 paragraphs.
Heh, can't help it. Its just that my mood is coming back again,
and I don't know why. Its a good thing though. Heh, love you all! :DD

I've got a feeling, that tonight's gonna be a good night.

2012 !

2009-11-22T22:16:00.006+08:00

Totally an awesome movie! :D

Alright! I'm back from packing my bag for tomorrow's band camp.

Its tiring alright. Woke up this morning many many times.

During 2, 4, 5, 7, 8, 9 and finally 10. I don't know why, its like as if something bad is going on. But I woke up in time to see annabel fok's msg! :D

Girl, hope you have fun there and may the Lord grant you journey mercy.

Will miss you and am missing you now. Awaiting for your arrival! :DD

Hmmmm, I must say that last night's dream was exceptionally sweet.

However from 9 onwards, its was total nightmare.

Lucky my bro came in and slap me on the back. Usually I would have scream at him, but thank God he woke me up from that hideous nightmare.

I don't remember it now though, but I remember it was scary.

Ohwell, went to meet weihui for lunch. Helped her tidy her room too. (:

Met daddy after that to catch 2012 at causeway.

Though I was controlling my pee (as it was 2h40mins long), it was nice.

I couldn't take my eyes off the screen. Its exciting and touching too. Heh.

Quicky went home after the show to pack my bag. And here I am! :D

So, I didn't get to talk to that nocturnal owl.

I didn't exactly get to know every thing from weihui.

I didn't clarify things out as yet.

Faking a smile.

2009-11-21T13:41:00.006+08:00

I was a fool.

It was a fun night, though this time it was my turn to fall asleep. :/

But I was glad I did, because it would have been worse.

I would totally rather be in a place where reality doesn't exist.

I don't wanna face the truth because the truth hurts.

Hahha, lucky Ruth was here to hold back my tears.

I'm proud of myself that not even a tiny drop. And thanks uhs Jianhao. (:

I can't wait to go to church, which also means, Jolene's house.

I can imagine in my head how she's gonna welcome me alr. Hahaha!

She and her enthu-ness. Oh well, that's what she's famous for. Haha.

I wanna go to church and talk to that nocturnal owl.

I wanna talk to weihui and know every single thing.

I wanna clarify things out as soon as possible.

Who are you? Do I even know you?

Yes, you're right. You're no longer the one whom I once loved.

Sleepover!

2009-11-20T20:49:00.004+08:00

Heh, Ruth Ho is here to sleepover at my house. Again! :D

Yayness! Planned this long time ago, but she .. tsk tsk. :/ Hahaha.

Lucky she's in my room and not seeing this now. Lalalas.

Me, Ruth Ho & Shixian was cleaning up the house just now.

At times, I really find that my house is too big. Arghhhh.

Had a hard time cleaning up just now. Glad its over. (:

Watched twilight with the Ah Ruth. Can't wait to watch new moon!

NEW MOON.

How was I suppose to trust you. You told me to believe and trust.

I really couldn't believe what you did. I was really such a fool..

They were right about you. I hate you, I really do.

别再哭了多不值得, 失去也是另一种获得.

幸福不一定非爱谁不可.

My feelings

2009-11-19T19:28:00.003+08:00

My trust in you is bursting away.

Yesterday, went to meet yvette for lunch and we saw Ang! Haha

Aftermath, weihui came to find me and we took a stroll in the park,

with korkor roller-blading behind. Hahha, was fun man. (:

Today, went for band. Did sectionals throughout, other than the last part.

Had fun with my juniors, again. (: Went to meet yvette at plaza after bathing.

Visited Jocee as she had headaches. When we went there, she was still sleeping. So, me and yvette were tip-toeing ard, just not to wake her up. Nice people right? :D

She woke up and we chatted. Fun people like us always get fun. Haha.

Came home and online. Hahaha, many people talked to me.

People whom I've not talked to for ages. People like ... OYJH! Heh.

Irritating guy, disappeared for like .... so long and he say I dao him. Crap.

Hahaha, oh well. Got many things to talk to him, but doubt can say all.

Hope Ruth Ho coming over to sleepover tomorrow night. (: (L)her lots.

Class outing!

2009-11-18T02:19:00.005+08:00

Waiting for your actions and not words.

I think I'm really getting jet lag. Look at the time now! I can't sleep. D:
Sighs. Ohwell, let's talk about what happened earlier.
It was fun man! Met classmates at pending stn and bus down to east coast.
Started of with biking. Goodness, my stomach hurts so much after I biked.
I totally felt like vomiting, didn't know why that took place.
It hurt so much that I was perspiring badly, my face seems to be in a bad shape.
Glad it was over after quite awhile. (: Went to play, and cycled again.
Watched Jennifer's body with rosa from psp. It wasn't that horrifying. LOL.
And coming from me, I think you could probably guess its totally nothing. Haha.
Played in the water after that. Vicky and Ruth chased me in at first.
Followed by Ruth and Rebacca dragging me in and tried to dunk me.
Sickening people! Haha. I dunk Ruth in too. ^^ yayness
Played for awhile till Mr Chong came. We danced the chicken dance for him.
Hahah, retards right? :/ Went off early with Rebacca to do things.
Met weihui at outram park stn. Thanks, girl! You never fail to reject me even though its like super duper last minute. Heh.
Talked with her and had fun. She came over after that and we ate & look at the photos that I took in Turkey. Read our books till we forgot bout the time.
Hahah! Bookworm huh, teeheehee. Ohwell, think I'm going to sleep alr.
Usually this is the time I sleep in Turkey. Heh. :D

Back from Turkey.

2009-11-17T22:53:00.007+08:00

Was it the right decision to followed my heart?

I'm back! :D

Believe it or not, I almost got homesick. Its like the first time I miss home.

Heh, isn't it amazing. I practically miss everyone.

There was ... fun. Everthing was perfect, great place to think & clear my mind.

However the food there ... hahah, no comments. (:

The scenery there is just beautiful, totally breathtaking.

But its nothing compared to the night sky there. The night sky is like, WOW!

I guess it was a good thing I went huh. Hahahha.

Well, if you're waiting for the cute guys part, here goes nothing!

That place is filled with hot & cute guys I must say. I mean, really!

I think I'll never forget one. :/ Heh. But still, nothing close.

Though I miss my sisters like super duper much, I can tell they miss me too.

Hahaha, look at how they flood my tagboard and spam my inbox,

by flooding my facebook too. Love them loads too! :D

Thanks to Ruth Ho & Yvette Neo for mentioning my name in almost every post.

Hahhaa, crazy people. :/ And also to my other sisters. (ALL: SIC)

Changi Airport

2009-11-06T22:16:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps, I'm currently at the airport here. I can't seem to find the phone booth to call you guys. Still, just wanna tell you all. I'm going. Heh. (:
Just heard that last night at the place I'm going to go later had a hailstorm. Cool right?
Hope its gonna snow there. Hahaha. Ohoh, the number my mum took here isn't her number.
But my phone number. The 97225817 one. Haha.
Withlove! :D

Hello Turkey, Goodbye Singapore.

2009-11-06T15:36:00.007+08:00

I'm leaving, but yes, I'm still coming back.

I'm going to the airport soon. Flying to Turkey & will be there till 15th.

Its gonna be fun (I hope). Well, I'm sooooo gonna miss all my sisters la.

& of course church. 2 weeks I'll be missing from church. This is sad, sad, sad.

Awwww, but nonetheless, its gonna be fun there. (Comforting myself.)

Hahah, to some crazy people out there, I'm coming back of course.

(Even if you don't want me to be back) Hahah, I don't wanna be stuck in a place where the living things there speaks alien languages alright. (:

Well, I wanna wish dabian BON VOYAGE. As I won't be able to wish her.

Since I'm coming back on the 15th, and she's leaving on the 14th.

Hahah, May the Lord bless you and return safely. (Except the brain concussion part) Hahhah.

Last night felt like a dream, today is fun-filled.

Guess I slept too late last night. Felt so sleepy in class and right now.

Haha, class was fun. We did chinese idioms. Dabian and me kept arguing,

andrea that assy& yj kept copying. Hahaha, it was fun. (:

Went for lunch with yvette & andrea. Had loads of fun with them.

Just that, they were so irritating. Kept on arguing and ... nevermind. LOL.

Gonna go read my book and probably take a nap before leaving. BYE! :D

I don't want history to repeat and causing others to hurt.

I'm tired of being tired.

2009-11-04T13:21:00.004+08:00

I don't wanna be trap in this suffocating tiredness no more.

Call me useless, scold me, hit me. For I do not care anymore.

For I know I'm that. I can't help but regret more than I should.

If only time can go back in time, if only I knew. If only...

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Just came back from bridging in school. This morning ain't that good.

Gonna meet weihui & co later. & I hope things will be better for me.

I wanna smile like I mean it & that I'll mean it.

Wishful thoughts.

2009-11-03T21:02:00.005+08:00

Back to the very same point : disappointment.

I guess you shouldn't have triggered my wild imaginations, feelings and memories again. But now, I guess I'm used to the feeling of disappointment.

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Today (03.11.09),
was a fun day, I guess. Ate lunch and played.
I'm happy that dabian seems to love her presents a lot. (:
She can't help but keep smiling to me (her usuals) and thn to the prezzies.
Hahah, typical dabian. She gets humoured easily.
Nothing much to post anymore.

I wna cry out loud for pete's sake.

Why are things going so wrong?

2009-11-02T23:05:00.006+08:00

Emptiness within.

What's wrong, why has things gone so wrong. We've all come so far.
Why of all, now? I'm waiting, awaiting for your reply, for your answer.

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Yvette Neo Kay Gee!
-Thanks la, thanks for listening to me. And thanks for sharing. I promise you! (:
Jolene Tan Xin Yi!
-You too girl, thanks for taking time out to listen about people you hate.
Hahah, I still love you! (:

&&& To my Beloved dabian!
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY!
Thanks girl, for always being by my side. Always hearing me sigh.
Always listening to my crap and laugh about it. Haha.
You're always the one who cheers me up unfailingly with your cuteness.
Your innocence can sometimes pissed me off,
yet being around/with you, I feel totally at ease and comfortable.
You'll forever be in my life.
Continue to strive for A1(s), okay? :D
I'll pray that tomorrow will be a lovely day for your celebration,
and that your piano teacher will be understanding to give us your time.
Love you girl! [:
PS: your birthday is tomorrow. Heh. (:

Waking up from wonderland.

2009-11-01T23:07:00.006+08:00

You're no longer the one whom i once known.

Haven't been updating and all lately. Have been thinking a lot these days.
Thinking of the past; how did things went wrong.
Thinking of the future; how it would be like if things did not go wrong.
I guess, these are all God's plan for us. If its really meant to be, He will give it to us.
Thinking, are dreams opposite from reality or are they visions?
I don't wish to console myself by telling my ownself false things.
Nor, do I wish to hide and ran away from these emotions.
I've been hiding and running away for so long.
I've been putting on a face and covering my heart for so long.
When things turn wrong for me, you're always there for me.
When I'm lost, you'll be the one who finds me.
This time, this very time. I'm lost. Will you be the one finding me again?
Or, this time, its gonna be for real?

Reminisce

2009-10-29T23:26:00.005+08:00

Its all coming back to me now.

Dead and gone.

2009-10-26T22:24:00.004+08:00

I guess I needa learn how to trust others first before wanting others to trust me. Because trust is so important, it cause me to lose a loved one.

Changed.

2009-10-22T20:31:00.010+08:00

I realised who I really need.

Something taunted me for the whole day. Actually, not the whole day.
Still, it did. Came home from school, it still did. Goodness.
(Please don't ask me what it was, as I do not wish to be reminded of it.)
Anw, just realised that, certain people aren't meant to be trusted.
Everyone appears nice in front and all helpful, there when you needed them.
However, deep down inside, they aren't what it seems.
Trust, is something that has been taken away from me. Time & again.

Leaving the past behind.

2009-10-18T21:46:00.003+08:00

So awfully tired, goodness. DDD:
Woke up at 11 plus, didn't intend to sleep at all, but, oh well. (:
Played monopoly deal agn after we woke up and after we wash up. Haha.
Like fun uhs. Weihui came over in the morning, with mummy & daddy.
Went out to eat at pizza hut's, as we were celebrating daddy's birthday.
After some shopping and buying of stuff, took the bus down to orchard.
Sent my phone for repair alr. I hope its able to be repaired,
and won't be that expensive. :/ Went to walk ard in ion, its nice alright. Hahah.
Bus back home after awhile. Accompanied weihui to get her dinner.
Finally, Home Sweet Home. :DD Gonna bath and sleep soon.
Awfully tired. I'm dreading for tomorrow's sunshine. D:

God is real, He is faithful ! :D

Precious Moments.

2009-10-18T05:00:00.004+08:00

Hahhaa, its like, 5 o'clock in the morning now, and here I am, com-ing.
And Ruth Ho's beside me. Guess what, I broke my record of staying awake only till 2 am. Not bad isn't it. Hahaha.
Ytd (sat) was fun fun & more fun. (: Gonna have lunch later to celebrate daddy's birthday. Doubt we (me & Ruth ho) will be sleeping anytime soon, or maybe at all.
Oh well, she wanna blog alr, so, bye peeps. :D

Outdoors, here I come! :D

2009-10-15T18:50:00.004+08:00

Feels like I'm on top of the world.

I'm so happy and thankd the Lord, now that exams are over.

But for the first time I'm worried for my results, and the irony is,

the subject is actually physics! Hahah, that's one subject I couldn't care most. :/

Oh well, now that they're over, I'm happy. Did not study hard for this time.

If I can pass for certain subjects, its already a miracle.

Anw, let's stop harping on it cause,

EXAMS ARE OVER! HOORAY!

Lalalas, gonna go out tomorrow with fellow peeps.

Honestly speaking, I look forward to it, yet dread about it. D: Sianzxzcxzxzx

Oh well, outdoors here I come! :DDDD

I badly need a good sleep, I'm getting grouchy. D:

PS: I love you.

2009-10-11T11:50:00.004+08:00

Blurry images of you, blurry images of the past & th future.

I love my Heaven & Earth green Tea! Right Ruth?
Lalalas, I'm back blogging when I should be studying. But who cares.
Slam that bio textbook of 14 chapters that I needa study. Lalas. :D
I'm happy happy happy, for God is faithful and real. He's everlasting.
He reigns in me! :D
yayness, can't wait for holidays to come! :DD
Ohoh, SISTERS! Who's up to watching [500] days of summer with me? ^^
I wanna watch it, so cool la. Wheeeeeeee, heh. Lalas, I rock!
There's gonna be geog and bio paper 1 tomorrow for me.
Saddening right? So much to memorise. I bet i'll get into a coma after it.
Hahaha, good for some people who finished their exams alr. D:
Oh well, just 4 more days to go! :DDDDDD hahah!
Anw, congrats to kor for winning & getting back medals for judo competition.
Okay, gonna study and await for my bandito pocket's arrival!
Byeeeeee~

Where has it all gone to?

2009-10-04T12:16:00.003+08:00

Hey, look who's back? (: Oh well, things are not going so fine these days.
Things happened ytd, after that I misplaced the phone that sweetlove lend me, (which I'm extremely sorry about it DD: ) So please don't contact my hp number for the time being. & thanks sweetlove for consistently ensuring and cheering me up. & others who made me laugh. Thanks yeah. (:
Service was fun last night, though I was moody and all. But nothing can stop me from praising and worshipping the Lord happily. :D
Played with lanterns and candles and ants with bro, weihui & shixian last night.
Haha, we were cruel people by burning the ants alive. :/
Played with sand and all, went home real late and dirty.
But I was the first to get into the shower! :D Heh. Its good to be clean. ^^
Ate supper and slept alr. Woke up late as I slept late. Hahah.
Gonna go read through some subjects alr. Bye peeps. (:

Why is this gap between us getting bigger?

Sense of familiarity.

2009-09-30T16:35:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow's alr the first paper of end of year exams, which is also english.
So sick of studying and facing my desk alr. &yet all that i've read through ain't going into my head. So gonna be dead this time.
Inspiration, determination, perseverance, where've you all gone to?
Laziness, procrastination, just what are you doing here?!
Sigh, I wanna do my best and give it my all for this round's eoy.
But now, I doubt I can alr. Oh well, gonna go alr.

It feels empty, something's missing.

Captivated.

2009-09-28T17:20:00.002+08:00

Life's normal. School is a chore. Study is starting to be a bore.
Still, church is as fantastic as it can be. Last week, which is two days ago, church was fun. I rushed down from school just to go church, okayy!
Idk why, but I always feel really great being in church or near church,
or, i don't know. Haha, church just simply rocks. It makes me all happy.
Probably cause I can literally feel God's presence, though nnot just in church.
But, more in church. & maybe cause of the additional stuff.
All I can say is, once again, my heart is captivated.

In the midst.

2009-09-26T11:04:00.007+08:00

Reminisce.

Jerlene Yong is having a very bad tummy ache this days. DD:

Hmmm, have been procrastinating hell lot. It ain't what I expected.

I expected more inspriration. Jerlene Yong has once again let me down.

Oh well, how bad can things end up to be? Okay, very. DDD:

Anw, talked to sweetlove last night on the phone. Heh, love her loads lah! :D

Just came back from school due to mathssss remedials. Sickening.

& I've to go back to school later for alumni dinner to perform,

and rush over to church. Happy & excited for church, but not exactly for

the performance. I mean, I know seniors will all be there,

but the thing is, I wna go church more. & yes it is much more important.

Cause its only once a week, for pete's sake! Okay, alumni dinner is once in a blue moon, yes I know. But still, I want church more!

Well, I'm going only because mummy asked me to, cause what she said was right, about the part whereby God wants us to do well in everything.

So, I'm being a good girl by listening to her, but gonna cab to church after it.

Its gonna be darn hell rush as I've to change, cause I can't possibly wear band uni to church, right? So yeah, needa go home and blah blah blah.

Okay, I'm gonna sleep now for later to have energy! Heh, with much love! :D

Ohohoh, this people are soooo sickening, they owe me things! D:<

People such as:

Yvette neo kay gee, who owes me an outing since 1024728 million years!

Ruth Ho Jing Yi, who owes me a sleep over W/O sleeping! (HAHA)

Annabel Fok Xiu Ling who owes me a date! Since 10856320#@* B.C !

Ee PeiQing, who owes me another breakfast tgt! :/

Ng Xintong, who owes me an outing too!

&&& I want all this debts to be returned during the dec holis! Heheh, I so kind, wait for exams over and a couple of months after exam, just in case you all do badly and parents ground you. But, by then, during dec, they should've forgotten. ^^ Hah.

Joyous day!

2009-09-23T22:09:00.006+08:00

As happy as it seems, it truely is.

Fun fun fun fun fun! Heh, fun. (: Love today much, okayyeh!

Played monopoly deal with sisters though I'm suppose to study. :/

Hahah, came home and procrastinated all the way till now. Oh well, heh!

My dear Ruth Ho Jing Yi, cheerup yeah! Don't let this bring you down.

Please know that the Lord is & will always be with you,

under any circumstances, be it rain or shine, He'll be by your side.

He loves you and wants the best for you, so fear not for He's here!

Like He said, 'Ask, and you'll recieve!' So, don't worry girl,

He'll answer our prayers. Oh yes, He will. :D I love you very much girl!

& With much loves,

I'm signing off. :D

Life seems to be perfect now.

2009-09-22T19:21:00.006+08:00

This is the kind of place I wna be, with you.

Though I've been busy with homeworks now, too many to count,

life seems to have settled down for me, and everything seems to be going well.

However, at the other side of the world, at another corner in this world,

someone's suffering out there. The world is sadistic, filled with misery.

However, God is my hope, my light. (:

Slack during bio lesson today as teach didn't come due to her poor memory.

She thought today was mon, and thus missing our lesson. Hahha.

Had an enjoyable time chatting with andrea & vicky. They rock lah! :D

Dabian didn't came today. D: Miss her loads lah, though she's seems diff.

Idk why, but I kinda notice that during exams, she hardly pays attention to us.

She always gives the 'I'm here, I'm not here' that kind of thing.

Poor girl, mugging too hard alr, always after exams thn she'll be herself.

Hahah, that girl uhs. I prefer the cheerful & blur girl though. (:

Hope she did well for her piano exams today! :D

Hmmmm, its been awhile since I last hang out with yvette & co.

Its been awhile since I talked to sweetlove on the phone.

Its been awhile since I last stepped into the cinemas.

Oh well, all these have to wait till EOYs are over. Sch ain't over for us though.

We still have bridging and O lvls next year. DDDD: Sadded.

Sigh, talking bout exams, I gotta go mug alr. Hope I won't procrastinate. :/

Bye peeps!

Weekends!

2009-09-20T13:43:00.004+08:00

You'll never know what it takes to get you to the other side of beauty.

Okay, here I am, updating again, with Ruth yawning away. Hahah.
Gonna talk bout band night and ytd. Band night was a success! (To me) Heh.
I managed to play Happy wanderer & When the saints w/o any error. (:
Seniors all came back to support us. Ruth & weihui too.
At first I thought yvette, wen & ahma they all won't come, but in the end. Heheh. ^^
Oh well, love them loads lah. Heh.
Ytd, had loads and loads of fun. Lalalalalalas. (:
Went to school early for counsillor thingy, didn't go amath as it ended early,
and went home as I was not feeling well, thus missing chem too.
Came home to sleep, felt better when I woke up, thus, meeting WG peeps.
Had a fun time playing & shopping too. Hahah, bought real bubbles,
which can pop. & fake bubbles which can't. WG was extremely funtard! :D
Heh, played double wacko, and apparently, some people wna sabo me.
Hahahah, but it was fun anw. (: Gave out sweets too, as our group.
was serving this week, thus had no choice but to do so. Hahhah, like weird uhs. :/
Annabel didn't come this round as she had to study for EOY.
Had a great and funny dinner with Mag, Nicole, Ruth, Bethea & Maygan.
It was soooooo funny till Ruth laughed like a madwoman. Hahaha!
Had a fantastic service by the timor group which went timor-leste last week.
I can tell it was really fun, though they shared only the divine appointments,
God worked out for them. I believe there are more but due to time constraints.
I wna go next year too! Really hope I can, I wna see the world out there.
On the bus home was better, me and Ruth were eating sour skittles.
We were competing too, to the extent our tongue got numb. :/
Ate vanilla cone, slack with Ruth and homed. Watched van helsing w family. (:
Today, woke up super early as Ruth said meet 7.30 at plaza mac.
I called her before leaving the house. She made me call her sooooo many times.
So I bet she was still sleeping. Hahaha, took the same bus tgt. Not bad can. XD
Ate breakfast (My fav hotcakes & sausage) & did homework.
I was procrastinating all the way though. :/ Till now still haven't do,
after reaching home and having a long sleep. Hahah. :DDD
Some weird dream I had just now. Oh well, going out later for dinner.
Gonna go Sakura rest to meet the rest as its Amy jiejie's 21st birthday.
Okay, gotta go, Ruth's falling asleep on the table alr. Haha, bye! :D

Stubborness

2009-09-16T18:55:00.003+08:00

I'm stubborn, you're plastic.

Been really busy with school works and all, today is the only free day.
Intended to do my amath homework as I've tons to catch up.
But guess what? I slept through till 6+ like some lazy ass. -.-
Okay, I know I must catch up with my sleep too, but amath more impt.
Have to put out time for my amath later tonight yet cope with other subs.
What life is this man. Lalalalas. I miss talking to peeps during weekday nights.
But, due to my handphone having probs, I can't even use it now.
&&& EOY is near, I could hardly even touch the phone, be it house phone.
I shall catch up with everyone after EOY too. Heh. (:
Let's add more catch up (ketchup) :/ Okay, I'm lame. Hahah.
Gonna go watch tv and if possible, resist the tv & do homework. D:
Anw, bye! :D

What's this feeling?

2009-09-13T18:50:00.003+08:00

What's this feeling of mine right here, right now?

If pictures means a thousand words, if pictures shows it all, tells it all, then I guess there's many pictures awaiting for me out there, for I'm feeling this sense of confusion in me. A sense of mixture, or rather, is it just a sense of emptiness?
If it is, Lord, please come into this emptiness and fill it with Your presence.
For I don't know what kind of life I'm leading right now, what am I suppose to do next? Father, please show me the way. Let your will be done.
Am I happy, am I sad, am I angry, am I anxious? I don't know, but I'm bothered.
Hmmm, do you ever feel this way? I guess everyone will, right?

Okay, enough of my feelings, End-Of-Year is round the corner,
about 3 weeks or so? I needa start mugging soon already, but I know I won't.
I'm pretty much well-known for a slacker if you guys know me. :/
Heh, and pretty much of a procrastinator too. Haha, well, that's me! :D
Now I feel like roaming around the world, seeing the real world out there,
and not stay in just one country. However, this is a dream I dream.
Doubt I'll ever have such great amount of money to accomplish this.
& besides, it may not be God's plan for me. But then again, who knows?
Just have to wait and listen. Patience is the virtue, isn't it? Heh.
Now my task is just to study hard and achieve good results. Lalalas. XD
Seems so easy right? Study & achieve good results.
If only it is as easy as it sounds. But then agn, like i said, "If Only"
Anw, some boring holiday this is, going back to school everyday.
Phone giving me problems (Guess it need a check up too.)
Though yesterday was really fun, but still, something's still bothering me.
I don't know what it is, its just how I feel. But, I'm gonna be pretty busy,
to even bother what's bothering me, cause music night is this friday.
That's gna be pretty much of going in and out of the band room this week.
Next sat will be the alumni dinner, though I can't perform on that day,
there's still band practices. Plus everyday of homework, and revisions,
my whole september seems to be pack and full already. Some month huh?
Oh well, gotta go. Updated for the fun of it, doubt I'll be updating often.
Cause, I won't be bothered to do so. ^^ so, bye peeps!

Sealed with a kiss promise.

2009-09-09T19:28:00.011+08:00

I miss the joy, love & the fun.

Hey hey hey! Its 09/09/09 & I'm in the mood for blogging! :D
Yes, its been awhile since I last blog, due to my mood and the stuff.
But, here I am again, aren't I? (: Have been watching Korean dramas,
talking to sweetlove on the phone at nights, just talked to weihui too. (:
I miss my precious, keai and Jocee. I miss talking to them a lot.
Jocee say wednesday will call me, well, today's wed and here I am waiting.
Bet she forget this deal we made alr, sighhh. Oh well, let's see to it. ^^
Got my stationaries today at lot 1 with peeps. Can't wait for sat to come.
I miss all my sisters, i miss church, I miss all the fun & the laughters.
This week, time seems to pass slower. Much much slower.... Awwww!
Please pass faster, Mister Time! DDD: Oh well, gotta go alr. Bye~ :D

Picturessss~! :D
-posted these photos as I miss my friends & lovable sisters a lot. Wna see them soon! I hearts them loads. <3!

Yvette to Jerlene

2009-09-07T23:26:00.009+08:00

This young woman here ↑ (sitting in Lot 1 asif she owns this place) is so busy to post.. but nobody wants you to stop posting girl, so too bad, must continue posting ya. I'm your daily reader okay, so is my twinny sister,we like devoted to your blog only. *winks at each other* ;)

Anyways.
I'm posting bcos i wanna dedicate smth for ya jerlene.
(cos you want me to) ;)
Thank you sweetheart for everything you did, listening to me, my craps and others, giving me advices and showing me the way to go whenever i am lost, or needed a solution to end my sorrows. Whenever i needa someone to talk to about private matters, you're always the person that came up to my mind. I'm grateful to have you arnd me, although sometimes you hit me rly super pain loh (be it butt or back). But still, i beared with it and did not get angry (peace out). And at times we had cold war, the feeling's terrible lahs, but we got it sorted out in the end right? :D I hope getting attituded or ignored by you will not happen again. ok? set lah. And meetup soon girl. Have nt seen you for veh long liao :( Anw i am glad you called me just now to talk (after so long), hehehehehe. *smiles w teeth*

whatever it is/whatever happens,
I love you SH, and will always :D

Goodbye! Post soon jerlene, we'll be waiting for it.
anyway jer, i like your font,so cute.

Blessed night!

2009-09-04T23:19:00.006+08:00

Love doesn't walk away, people do.

Today is super uber de-duper fun fun fun FUN! :D
Lalalas, shall skip lessons part as it was damn boring. Heh.
Had english oral after school today. I was the fourth, so cool right!
First time I finish so fast as my index no. is the last one. -.-
After oral, we were playing monopoly deal. First time playing.
Never win lah, walaooo. Vicky help everyone except me.
She say I learn very fast, no need help. Irritating lah, where got such thing!
Haha, thn hor, sickening Chang, beginner's luck. Wth, make me lose till no face!
Hahahha, had a fun time with them lah. XD Ate dinner and off for duty.
Had sooooo much fun time doing duty. Heh, kept going my class.
So fun lah. My mum damn funny siol, she come take number,
go home watch korean drama. Say what, my number reaching,
you call me, thn i come down. LOL right? Haha, retarded.
Talked to ahma while waiting for her mum to come.
Ah can, keep breaking into our conversation. Hahahh, he uhs. Tsktsk. :/
Mum came when it was her turn, went with her. She didn't understand Mr Rao.
Hahaha, so cute lah! Thn she and dabian's mum talk talk.
I faster run away uhs, hahha. Went to find rosa, chit chatted and stuff.
Escorted yvette & her mum to the school gate first,
followed by Jocee & her mum a few mins later. :D
Went to find 3e1 people, we all gathered outside class,
saying our teachers, cause they sabo us. So funny lah, hahah. :D
Saw Azri's lil sis, so cuteeee! Look like Azri lahh, esp the forehead.
Carvin and aaron keep disiaoing me, say my hair. Irritating people. Hmmph!
After everything, me & ros went 3rd level the open space there first.
Vicky they all came not long after. When we saw them, we faster run.
Went to 2nd level and saw them fooling ard, so went to join them.
We sat in a circle, there was, me, vicky, chang, adil, ros, wayne, choon xuan, su hao, aaron & carvin. Irfan was on a look-out. Hahah!
We played truth or dare, and they asked me some stupid stuff,
like, who's your first crush? & I was like, you all don't know de. Hahha.
Then I anyhow said some name, and they all went, huh? LOL.
While playing, Irfan and Adil told us got people, then we all hide.
We hid by, bending down, or lying flat down so they won't see us.
Hahah, so fun! We had so much fun time tgt. &&& the best thing was, the moon was amazing. It was sooo pretty and bright. (:
A beautiful night sky indeed. Haha, went home with vicky & ros.
Charlie's angels again. Talked about the past and stuff, so cool.
Its been awhile since the three of us are tgt alr.
This is one day, I won't forget.

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Overdue photos!

A sense of unbelonging.

2009-09-03T22:54:00.004+08:00

There's no turning back now, so don't regret.

Ain't feeling all that well tonight, too many things happening in one night.
I can't take it no more, everything is all jumbled up tgt deep inside.
I'm feeling all mixed up and uncomfortable. I feel failure yet unfamiliarity at the same time. What's all this, maybe I know but then again, maybe I don't.
Having bad headaches ever since this morning. My eye bag has worsen.
I looked so old and weary now, so sickening. I've been sleeping in lately,
I don't see why my eye bag have worsen. Its really really bad now. D:
I think I'm falling sick soon, had slight fever just now.
Really wonder what's going on in my life these few days. Here but not here, there but ain't there. Some life I've got right now.
Lord, gimme strength to overcome all these.
Might be privating my blog soon.

A beautiful night which touched upon the past.

2009-09-02T19:38:00.002+08:00

There's gotta be more to life.

Nothing much about today, though I heard bout something new.
Okay, it may be shocking to others, but to me, it just ain't shocking enough.
Somehow I expected it to happen, maybe to me its all the same.
What else can hurt more than what had happened during those times.
I'm over and done with it, this ain't important to me no more.
It no longer brings me down like how it used to, for I'm staying strong.
& I'm gonna be stronger than before.

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Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
(1 Corinthians 13:4 )

Just when things were getting better.

2009-09-01T20:41:00.004+08:00

Just a dream anyway.

Fun-filled day! Hahaha, dreaded to wake up this morning, however, I would have regret if I didn't went today! It was so fun. :D
Went to Orchid Country Club with Weihui, Ruth & family.
That place is just ... awesome! First, me & Ruth went to the gym to work out first, while the others like weihui, Reuben, Ruth's sis & mom, her two small cousins went to swim in the pool.
Worked out for half an hour there. The guy who worked there is cute!
But Ruth say he is hot, hahha. Whatever. He talked to us, love his smile.
He's so friendly lah, I worked out more than Ruth Ho can, that slacker.
Hahah, went for swimming after that. The guy was like, you two so fast uhs?
Lols, oh oh, he's girlfriend is pretty alright! Hahhah. (:
Anw, swimming was fun. But the rain came and disturb us. Irritating.
The wind was so strong! I was freezing back there. Ate & went to bath.
Ruth brought us to the (only for members) changing room.
They never put anw notice there though, however Ruth's mum told us.
Hahah, that place is glamorous I must say. ^^
Used the hair-dryer to dry our hair and off we are to bowling! :D
Long time didn't bowl alr, skills deproved a lot, but still, not bad okay!
Hahah, weihui not bad uhs, first game alr so good le. She got the strength.
Ruth bo strength de, her arm muscles are for show only. Hahah!
Ate our lunch there too. Thanks for all the treats, aunty (Ruth's mum) !
Took the shuttle bus to yishun MRT, went to North-point.
Bought bread there agn, i bought my muffin. Yumyummm~
Bused home in 171. Had soooooo much fun today!
Hahha, in the bus we were talking bout Steve, the malaysia guy.
Hahah, and also girls going to NS. Ruth's mum say it'll be soon.
Awwww DD: sad lah, but still, I don't mind going. Heh.
Okay, gotta go soon. Though the time now is 8 plus,
but I'm gonna pack my bag and sleep again soon. Woke up just to update & eat dinner. Hahah, if not I'll still be sleeping okay! D:
Despite the weird dream I had just now, not gonna blog about it though.
So, beddieee, I'm coming! :DDDDD
WAIT! One last thing, Happy Teacher's Day!
-To all the teachers out there, thanks for teaching us all, teaching us education and knowledge. To all the parents, thanks for teaching us, what love is. What relationships are! Once agn, happy teacher's day! :DDD

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Thanks Ruth's mum for the treat today. Thanks to Ruth, Weihui, Rosanne, Reuben, Bryan, Brandon & Ruth's aunt too! Thanks for making this day special, exciting and fun-filled.
Hahah, and Aunty, I will do well for my EOY so that can go on the trip with you all! I sure don't wna miss out on such a trip, right Ruth? Hahahha!
PS: There's 5 bucks in the squaresquare bag. Ruth, please give it to your mum. Don't return it to me, neither can you use it. ^^

Sweet memories.

2009-08-31T20:00:00.002+08:00

The past which I yearn for, such innocence.

A wonderful day today is. :D Went back to school with many people teasing me, say I look like china doll. DDD: Hahah, sickening!
Acers was fun, teeheehee. So cool uhs, was enthuing away.
Had lots of fun during class time as there wasn't amath, and only 15 mins of emath? So cool right! Hahah, loads of fun. (:
During the concert esp. The skit by Ms mandy, Ms toh and some counsellors were superly funny! Couldn't stop laughing. Haha.
Were playing back stage when teachers were singing. Hahah, we were hiding uhs. Vicky was so high can!
After the concert, went home to put bag thn went back primary school.
Went to go find ang first, then saw Jason, and soon after, Ruiting.
Many 6G'06 was there, and not many went too. Miss everyone hell lot.
Saw, Jason, Darren, Eric, Jit Corn, Chin Guan, YouYuan, Kahang, Geok Soon, Zhi Heng, and many others guys which I forgot alr. :/
Thn there was also, Ruiting, Xintong, Huiwen, Sherril, Sufang, Cecilia, Zi sing, Rani, Junmay, PeiQing, and many others too.
Went to pending there the CC to watch the guys play basketball.
Only 3 girls were left, me, xintong and huiwen. Its always us 3. (: Xintong is sooo skinny that she looks so fragile, able to break anytime. It wasa just skins and bones. Huiwen, always the same, the cheerful girl. However, taller. DD:
We were chit chatting while watching the guys play their match.
Jason is so good in it lah! He kept scoring, hahah, and it pissed youyuan. LOL
Left before the game ended as xintong needs to go home.
Took the train with her, she told me many things. Things like her medical condition. Girl uhs, cheerup yeah. Always look towards the positive side! I'm here for you whenever you need me alright. Next time i see you, i wna see fats and meat alright! Hahha, loveyou girl. :D
Went to meet Ruth, Rosa & Jocee after that. At first, planned to go home, but Ruth called and said they end alr.
So went to meet them, anyway, its been awhile since we four were tgt.
Went to lot 1 as they needa get their dance stuff, hahah. Shopped quite long.
Homed after awhile. I love them yeah. :DD
Currently, talking on msn with peeps. Hahah, people like ang eh, Jason ang, Jiankai and Eric. Lalalas, wna go take a rest, I'm so tired!
Might be going out tomorrow with Ruth & family. For now, bye~! :D

True love waits.

2009-08-30T19:27:00.002+08:00

Nothing compares to the promise I have with you.

Today, today, today! :DD Woke up super earlier than usual.
Earlier than normal school time even, hahah. Me, Ruth & weihui bused to Suntec convention centre. Sweetlove last min can't come, sad lah. D: Keai took her mum's car there, that slacker. Haha.
We reached early, which was a good thing. Heh, went for prayer,
and was assigned to our places. The four of us same floor uhs. XD so cool.
Hahah, was kinda fun. But the crowd was massive and hectic.
Was so tired standing there can. Ard 10.15am, we went in for the service.
Get to attend the whole thing. (: Had a real wonderful event.
Windworkz big band performed for us and for worship too.
Their band was so ... strong! There wasn't any clarinet though. D:
Datuk Edward Ong came to share his experience bout money,
as the message for the day is, 'if I were rich..' He is darn rich lah. :/
Benny Prasad, an international musician came to tell us bout his life,
how God worked in him. He said, 'Nobody is useless, cause they can be use as a bad example.' Haha, I laughed so hard.
Hagen Tan, a singer & songwriter came to share too. He performed two music for us. Our church dancers danced for one. It was soooo cool!
Professor freddy boey, dabian's church pastor came to preach for us. I didn't get to hear him talked, only a bit as I was in the washroom. :/ Heh.
Lina Ng (actress & host) tgt with Clement Chow (singer & songwriter) was our MC for the event. (:
It was really a wonderful event. Wanted to go ion orchard for lunch,
then we changed our mind to Plaza Sing, then to Lot 1. However, we ended up in bukit panjang plaza. Haha. :D
From subway, we went kopitiam. LOL, cause we wna eat warm food. Heh.
Bought ice-cream after that, and went to took the bus home.
Hahah, I literally swallowed the ice-cream as the bus came alr. :/
Reached home and slept, though I intended to do amath first.
But I could not resist the bed. Slept all the way to 6 plus can. Thanks to sweetlove to call us, cause if she didn't, i'll still be sleeping. Hahah.
Lalas, so far did 2 ques of amath. Its pathetic, somehow something ask me to get on9. Haha, I don't know why. So here I am now, not sure what I'm doing.
Lets just wait for something to happen. LOL. :DD Bye peeps.

I love you enough to let you go.

2009-08-29T23:08:00.004+08:00

The love I want is the love I can't get.

29th august, finally the day of choices and decisions, the day of no more procrastination. The judgement day.
Hmmmm, went for band early in the morning. Went to ACS(I) for workshop.
It was fun I must say, really interesting. The Japanese profession in clarinet was really a professional I must say.
He created a very bouyant sound with the instrument.
It totally make me grew more passion for my clarinet. :DD
Went home to change and stuff and went out le.
Sickening people, made me waited for half an hour! Irritating, hahah.
Go buy bubble tea never tell me, somemore late,
at least buy for me lah! Idiot, hahah, okayokay. Waited for Chang & Ruth.
While waiting, chatted with sweetlove, took photos too. Heh. (:
Chang came first, played captain's ball. He's good at it lah.
Terence took over dabian's place and zhengzhong took over my place.
Walao, that terence hor, he catch the ball effortlessly can! Sickening lah.
Hahha, everyone was complaining. LOLLL, zz enthu yi ge can. Haha.
He call chang, kachang! Hahha, cause of his class tee. Funny lah.
Played a few rounds, i look like a total moron, plus horrr, i hurt my middle finger! HAHA. Damn funny lah. Till now also hurt can. I was pointing it to yvette. Haha!
Dabian & Ahma helped us take photo, dabian caught one which I love! :D
Heh, went for "dinner", send yvette they all to bus stop and went for the movie night, was really fun uhs. Watched sister act.
The show was soooooo funny that I laughed till from the sit can go to the floor.
HAHA! Keep hitting Ruth Ho and dabian. Hahhahaaaaa. :DDDD
After the movie end, slacked in church awhile. As usual, talking bout ___. Heh.
Saw him many times today, esp at captain's ball.
Weihui told me something, heh. Ruth too. Actually me, myself saw it too. XD
Lalalas, I'm on cloud nine now. Had supper at cck mac just now.
Had fun saying the same things at the same time with Ruth. It was damn funny I tell you, haha, we kept laughing bout it! &&& Ruth's staying over at my house tonight.
Tomorrow gotta wake up early, thus we last min decide.
Besides, she'll just gonna be late if she's at home. Hahah, that pig!
Okay, she's getting bored. Lalalas, sleeping late tonight I think. (:

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I'm chucking you in a far end corner of my heart, I'm not sure if when you're gonna come out again, maybe never. But still, this is the last time I'm gonna miss you. But tomorrow, its gonna be I ~~missed~~ you.

God's gift of joy and laughters.

2009-08-28T19:22:00.004+08:00

I can't seem to walk away from this love.

I don't know how I feel. Maybe I'm mad, or maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth, can't speak my mind
Don't know what I say, I'm just thinking out loud
Thinking out loud No, no I can't explain
What's happened to me
I feel like I'm right and wrong
Inside everything's upside down
Everything's spinning around
And it's freaking me out.

Saw you from the distance, saw you from the stage,
Something 'bout the look in your eyes, something 'bout your beautiful face,
In a sea of people, there was only you,
I never knew what this song was about, but suddenly now I do,
Can't let the music stop, can't let this feeling end,
Cause if I do it'll all be over, I'll never see you again

I want you to know that it doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go and I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better but I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
Remember all the things we wanted, now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye.

You see love at first is summer time that's when you think that everything's fine
No one ever thinks its gonna end but when things go wrong and winter comes
You're gonna need to run to someone left alone you'll just freeze up again
But you should know when it gets too cold You're not alone, I'll melt the snow.

A word's just a word 'Til you mean what you say. And love isn't love
'Til you give it away, we've all got a give, yeah something to give to make a change

And i'll be fine, you'll be fine.
Is this fine? I'm not fine.

PS: all different song lyrics. English isn't very good.

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Today, was kinda bouyant for me. Though not exactly all the time.
Waited for sweetlove after my chinese oral (which was quite okay. :DD),
tell you uhs, that girl very S L O W ! Hahah, super can, like snail. :/
Went to cut our hair, Kerin, Xiaowei, Shujuan waited for her,
while weihui waited for me. XD Hahhahha.
My new hair now, is like ..... kindergarden type. :X
I look like a small kid with my fringe like this lahhhhh!
But after looking at it for awhile, okay lah. Heh.
Went to meet Ruth & Jocee after my bath.
Sickening Terence & idiotic Yanzhi laugh at me! @&$@&#%$!*%!*%!!
Irritating lahhh, then keep disturbing me. Like what sial.
Hahah, okayokay, gotta go. Waiting for Jocee & Sweetlove's phone call.
Lalalas, (L)s!

The only thing I really regretted doing.

2009-08-27T22:53:00.004+08:00

Wna be left alone, please don't seek me.

Something awful and terrible happen today, i totally felt like a fool.
How could I be so stupid lah seriously. Sighhh, I hate my dumbness can.
How stupid can I be lah, wth. Oh well, arghhhhh.
Thanks for sisters comforts & weihui's almighty hands again.
& Jocee, its not your fault. I rather you tell me then later found out,
which would have been worse. I really wna thank you for telling me.
Though I still can't believe what I did, it sucks lah, totally. DDD:
Hate myself for it, really.
Anyway, the choir's night was really fantastic! I think the choir did a really good job can. :D hahah, went to support 3e1-ians people. XD
Met yvette they all after it, slack tgt after that.
They came my house, accompanied Ruth Ho to meet someone. Heh!
All the best people! Hahaha, :/ okay, no mood to blog le.
Hope I can sleep tonight, and neither do I wna have nightmares.
Sighhhhhh, gotta go.

Happy Birthday Annabel Sweetlove! :D

2009-08-26T19:38:00.003+08:00

Girl uhs, here's wishing a Happy 15th Birthday! :DD
As promised, here's a dedication to you, heh.
Thanks for being here whenever I needed you, though we only started talking this year or maybe last. :/ Hahah, really thanks.
I wna thank the Lord for giving me such a good Sister-In-Christ.
I read before, God puts our friends by us for a reason, friends are like diamonds, precious and rare.
Thank you once again Sweetlove & wishing you a wonderful birthday! :D

Started the day off by buying Annabel's cake with Ruth.
Cooked up a story to get Annabel to meet me, heh. Kerin came along too.(:
As we chatted and stuff, Ruth suddenly appear with the cake,
with the candles' fire blown away by the wind. Hahha.
Sweetlove was so shock (of course we told Kerin alr), so I guess that's a success? Hahah, it was so fun lahhh.
They keep saying, if later we late, blame Jerlene uhs. LOLLL.
We were eating the cake all the way till 8:17 and I was like, ehhhhh! 3 more minutes left. Faster faster! Aiyah, throw away the cake lah!
Hahha, funny can. We walk to school, still got so many people. -.-
Hahahahha, it was really funtard uhs. :D
During class too, soooo funny lah. Got back the remaining results.
Pleased with all except my geog, I expected an A2. Oh well.
But overall I must say I improved a lot. So, I'm still happy. Heh.
Slacked after school with Ruth. Wantded to go home to sleep, but in the end, I stayed due to the rain. Heh.
We were walking in the rain, hmmmm, its been awhile.
Slacked, chatted & camwhored again. Hahhaha, new hideout uhs. ^^
Went to watch the guide's captain ball. Took photos of them.
Esp wen & annabel's retardedness. Hahah, after their guides, npcc & SJAB, slacked with them. Had a fun time lah with them all.
Its been awhile since I really laughed like this.
Hahah, credits to Kerin & Annabel. The two siao ones. Haha.
I'm going for the choir night tomorrow. :DDD Can't wait man!
Also can't wait for sat to come, its gonna be a memorable one. :D
Tomorrow have chinese test. Sickening, don't wna study leh. :/
Oh well, gotta go eat soon. Heh, bye! :D
I love my Precious's present! :D"
Hahaha, thanks Ck & Ang eh" for their present they gave me, I love it. Thanks. :D

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These feelings are coming back to me again, its making me feel much more nervous than ever. I just hope that this time round's prediction ain't true.
I don't want anything to happen on that very day. I don't know why am I feeling this way. I'm getting more and more nervous as the days pass.
I know nothing is gonna happen, but still, its the day I've been looking forward to, once.
I just wna go back to my dreamland for I feel best there.

Just a dream.

2009-08-25T19:47:00.008+08:00

Got a wake up call, but just can't wake up.

Firstly, its 25th august! :D I know many people's birthday, falls on this date.

Forgot some though. :/ Firstly, Happy birthday to Janis CAL,

Secondly, Happy Birthday to Aunty Jenny & Thirdly, to ME! :DDD Heh.

Okay, today went perfectly well? Firstly, praise the Lord for my chem!

Secondly, for my SS. Though it ain't really good. :/

& Thirdly, for amath. Didn't had the time to complete the paper. Its easy, just that my answers all wrong? Sighhh, fail jiu fail bah. Its okay, did my best le.(:

And to everyone who wished me, be it through messages, calls (though its just benedict & a funny talking session with pierre! Hahha!) or face-to-face wishes. Thanks to everyone for it yeah! :D

Thanks to sisters for the presents yeah! :D Hahah, cute presents from them.

And hand-made cards, esp Huimin's one yeah.

Though you girls really shouldn't, still, thanks! :DD Greatly appreciated!

Those who wanted to gimme presents and i rejected them. :/

Hahha, thanks too yeah. Its the thoughts that count though. (:

Lalalas, had a fun time in school today. Lessons were awesome. :DD

Was playing a fool and having fun again. Hahha.

And after school with sisters, playing bluetack. Hahahah!

&&& the CAL's plan. XD Though it didn't really work.

Haha, couldn't help laughing lah, in the end Janis laughed first.

Funny can! Ahma was like, jiu zhi dao lohhhh~ Hahaha.

Yvette was like, orhhhh, so this was the plan. Hahhhaha, funny lahh.

Wen keep saying, see lah jer! Thn i keep making a pissed off face. Lols.

Chit-chatted and had more fun w yvette, shouting. :/ LOL.

Had moodswings after that, don't know why. Just feel liddat loh.

These days, have moodswings frequently, i don't know why.

Didn't felt anything, just don't feel like doing things thats all. Hmmm.

Weird hor. :/ Hahha, anyway. Jocee & Ruth came to find us aftermath.

Homed shortly, Ruth send me home. We slacked & cam-whored. (:

Okayokay, pictures timeeee~ Heh.

Happy 15th Birthday to the CAL!

Janis & Jerlene. :D

-Hey girl, thanks for cheering me up whenever I'm down.
Hahah, you this retarded girl. You'll always be loved by me!
So what if you're chao ah lian, i not scared! :/
Hahahah, loveyah girl. I (heart) you! XD

Feel like watching Boys Over Flowers lehhh~

I miss Lee Min Ho, heh! He's hot lahhh, got his video in my phone.

He rocks can, hothothothothothothot! :/ LOL, don't feel like doing anything.

I can't wait for saturday to come, though its 29 august.

But its gonna be the best day to me no matter what.

I hope/pray nothing is gonna affect me. *cross-fingers! :DD

Alright, I gotta go. &&& its Sweetlove/Annabel's birthday tmr!

I love that girl, await for a post yeahhhh. :D

I'm a happy girl, contented with now & all that I have. (:

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I can't help but feel this way. Guess I really need time yeah. I really don't know why, its just that, that day is getting near, I thought I could do this, I really thought so. But, I'm wrong.

However, I know I can do it someday. I just need time. I'm really contented with now, tgt with all my sisters, more time for my studies, more time with family &&& more time with God!

I just need time to forget, though I know its impossible. (:

I'm so over it.

2009-08-24T19:33:00.014+08:00

Love isn't all about two parties.

Okay, funtard! Today was fun fun fun. During geog, chatted with Naz, Rosa and Ruth. Ang eh one min act cool, the other act emo. Hahah! Thn chipmonk act guai. LOL, funny people huh. Hahha, our class uhs. We were talking bout old stories and having fun! :D

Oh well, school was definitely fun! :D and this during amath!
Me, dabian & rosa was so bored we started doodling.
One head, upper body, lower and the legs. We can't see each other's work. So we draw alr, flip behind and let the other draw. And the outcome... Hahha!

Went for band after school, slacked with dabian awhile. Love her lots can. (:
Sisters are really number one always! Gonna go revise through amath for tmr.
I'm pleased with my results so far. Just hope i don't fail chem,
as I heard that only 24 passes out of 40 students. *cross-fingers!
Some photos of ytd, and naz in that pic, is actually saying, "I love you!"
So cool right? hahah, esp as a birthday present. :DDDD

Weird dreams are coming back to me. I hate such feelings, it really scares me. This feeling of such familiarity. I don't want them back. The last round I had them, and everything turned out awfully bad. I really don't want. DD:

Missing you on a rainy day.

2009-08-23T17:49:00.001+08:00

Its time to have fun!

Start of with yesterday. It started of being a bad day.
Oh well, don't wish to talk about it. Hmmm, didn't see him ytd.
Awfully sad lah, sweetlove didn't come too.
She went to celebrate her birthday with her sisters and others.
Heard she had fun time with them. :DD
Keai bought me a kinder blueno for a present. Hahah.
I told her not to, but she insisted, oh well.
So cool right? And i bought a toblerone for myself!
My fav chocolate. Woooo~ Heh.
Yesterday's message was great, about being strong & courages.
Having faith in the Lord. And that's what I have. :D
Had a fun time in the bus ride home too. Hahah.
Asaph & Jerome. LOLLL, church totally rocks lah! :DDD
Came home and slept, awfully tired.
Today, woke up dreadfully. Force myself to okay.
Hahah, I'm proud of myself for that! XD
Went to church for prayer session. God moved us I guess.
We couldn't stop worshipping Him, we were singing one song after the other. God totally worked in us. He rocks!
Went to NewYork NewYork with family. Jolene came too. (:
Had a heavy lunch. Ate till we superly full. Hahah.
I can't upload the photos, sad uhs. Stupid blogger. -.-
Oh well, came home and slept. I know, I'm such a pig. But who cares!
Heh, ohoh. Today, Ruth, Vicky, Andrea, Nich, Ang eh, Herii & others went to Cathay to catch a up the movie, in 3D version.
They asked me to go, but I find the show lame. :/
Have fun people, enjoy the movie yeah! :DD
Okay, gonna go jog and burn the fats I took in just now. Heh.
Bye people, I'm off to meet weihui le. Lalaas.
Another lenghty post. :X

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All things end with a goodbye, somehow the memories suddenly came spilling back into my mind again. I don't wna feel this way. Lord, have your way in me.

Forget those hurts.

2009-08-21T23:58:00.003+08:00

Today simply just rocks! :DDDDDDDDD
I heart all my sisters lahhh, heh. Though it ain't me & Janis actual birthday,
still they took time out to celebrate it tgt. I really hearts them.
Met sweetlove after school, went home, chatted & bath.
Trained to lot 1 after meeting dabian. Waited for the others to come,
and off we are to SAKAE SUSHI! :D yummmm~ Heh.
Had a whole lot of fun time laughing out loud and playing.
The part about Jolene showing us all the photo saying, very chio.
Hahhaha, it still triggers me. (Inside joke) No offence, really.
Just find it funnaye. A bunch of funny people we are.
Kept laughing non-stop lah. Hahahh. After dabian left,
we left not long too. Camwhored tgt--Annabel, ahma, Hweewen, Janis, Me, Jocee, Jolene & Yvette. I really enjoyed myself lah. :DD
Not forgetting, having another (obvious) surprise by Ruth Ho & Rosa.
Hahaha, these two girls never fail to make me smile. (:
They surprised me with a cake, which I alr know. So obvious can! Haha.
Went up to my house to cut the cake, chit-chat and camwhored too.
Rosa left at 8, so me and ruth talked in the balcony, candle-lighted. XD
We talked bout many stuff. Hahha, never fail to not talk to her lah.
Apparently, not just she and rosa knows bout this surprise,
and also have been planning another one.
So sickening lah, all these people never tell me. Tomorrow, they all die. :/
Hahhaha, Ruth went home ard 9. Watched likeable or not w mummy.
From 9++ all the way to 12 ! And here I am now. Can you believe it?
I love my mummy too, gonna celebrate w family on sunday! Yay!
&&& ~~tomorrow~~, I mean today, is saturday! Woooo~
Just a couple more hours, and will be seeing 3e1-ians again.
And I'm gonna go church tooooo. Heh, can't wait. :DDDDDDDD
God really worked in me this week. (Hearts) Him!
And sad that weihui, vicky & andrea couldn't make it today. DDD:
But its alright. Hehh, still sisters no matter what. Lalalas.
Okay, its a lenghty post today. Gonna go have a sweetdream alr!
Bye peeps~

PICTURES~! :D

Taken at sakae sushi/lot 1

Okay, I know this looks wrong. But it ain't okay! D:

At my house. :D

Candle-light w Ruth Ho! :DD

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I see that you're happy now & that's good. (: I'm happy too.

Smile like nobody cares.

2009-08-20T19:19:00.002+08:00

Today's paper was average. Emath was easy except one question.
Physics was moderate i guess, but the stupid thing was I don't understand,
and I don't know how to answer. Sickening lah. Hope I get a B at least.
Got an A1 for my biology. I'm elated, but I don't want my chem to drop.
I'm scared that now that my bio improve, my chem drop.
Cause I seriously don't understand chemistry. I hope geog will be okay.
I wna get an A for my combine humanities! :DDD Hope I can. Heh.
I wna thank God for my bio results. Without him taking away all the distractions in my head and allowing me to concentrate and not procrastinate, I won't be able to get those bio stuff into my head. Praise be unto my Father!
He truely rocks! :DDDD Heavenly Father, you helped me in so many ways, and guide me through this darkness in my life. I love you, Father.
Talking to Annabel Sweetlove now. :D I love this girl lah.
Heh, she now singing away~ Don't worry, her voice didn't burst my eardrums.
Hahah, okayokay, gonna plan with her bout tmr le. Bye! :D
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Sorry sisters for giving you guys the attitude. Sorrayeeeee. :/
Guess I was throwing my tantrums and you all know the reason why.
Oh well, I should be more understanding right? Heh, (L)you all no matter what.
And sisters should know that.
PS: Broke the record of my anger towards sisters. Heh.

Chicken Little, where are you?!!

2009-08-19T18:37:00.006+08:00

I know you're somewhere out there watching over me.

CHICKEN LITTLE!!! WHERE ARE YOU?
I need chicken little lahhhh, my physics are crap shits can.
I need him to explain to me why like how he always does.
I need him to tell me how like he always does.
Of all times, he forsake us. DDDDD:
But I brought this to myself lah. LOL, shouldn't have slept.
Oh well, lucky I only don't understand pressure. Phew*
Talking to andrea now, and realise i needa buck up.
Everyone is studying so hard and here I am updating.
Hahah, i too bored le uhs. Still, must strive harder.
Okay, gonna go soon. Lalalalalas. Ta-ta! :DDD

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I wna stop feeling this way. I wna stop all this imaginaries of the better. I wna stop all this dreams coming to me. I wna stop all my thinkings.

Heart of service.

2009-08-18T19:25:00.005+08:00

You're a little late, I'm already torn.

Eeeeeeek! I'm awfully happy now, yet depressed.
Depressed over subjects like the stupid physics and chemistry. DDD:
I totally regretted not paying attention in physics & sleep.
But still, can't blame me lah, physics is awfully boring. :/ Hahahah.
And for chem, it totally sucks lah. I mean, I payed attention in every lesson and I failed two consecutive test on acids, bases & salts. DDD:
Not that I hate these subs. In fact, I love all my subjects. Sighhh.
Needa go mug soon agn, awwww. I hate exams!
But but but, one thing cheered me up! :DDDDDDDDDDD
People like Jolene, Weihui & Andrea should know why. Eeeek! :D
Can't stop smiling right now. Heh, he totally made my day again. Wooo~!
Can't wait for saturday to come agn! :DD Heh, off to study le.
Ciao~ :DDDD
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Up & coming stuff :
2 more days to Choi Siene's birthday.
3 more days to celebration! Woooo~ :DDDDD
4 more days to saturday and outing with S.I.C! Yayness!
7 more days to the CAL's birthday! :DDDDDDD
8 more days to my Sweetlove's birthday! :DDDDDD
11 more days to 29th august & Church outing! :DDD

Wna breathe agn.

2009-08-17T19:52:00.002+08:00

Okay, life is getting awfully stress. DDDD:
Studied damn hard for bio and in the end the paper is easy.
Not that I'll get an A1, just that it really is freaking easy. -.-
Needa start mugging for my Social Studies tmr, arghhhhhhhhh.
And worst of all, I've physics, chem & geog to catch up,
as I don't understand those subjects and never payed attn in class. DD:
I need a life man! Okay, gonna start mugging now.
Byeeee~!

Letting go.

2009-08-16T17:01:00.007+08:00

I wna have a greater feeling than this.

Yesterday! Hmmm, saturday just rocks my world lah. :D
Went to church w/o my specs. DD: Bet I looked like some kuku lahhh.
During WG, dabian and Keai say he looked at me a few times! Heh.
Then during service I saw agn lehhhh. (With my specs on lah)
:DDDDDDDDD I'm awfully happy lohh. Anw, ytd's msg speaked to me.
God answers prayers, He do, just that it takes time and effort.
Hmmmm, I really pray that God will answer my that prayer,
that I've been praying for a very long time now alr.
Close to coming a year alr. 13 more days to a year I guess.
Oh well, one day He will, I just know it. (: God rules~
And also the part, 'Maybe God wants you to let go of smth, I don't know what it is, probably a certain relationship with someone? Tv? Computer Games?' Okay, that just totally struck me alright.
At that point of time, I was like, oh greatttt.
God's words hit me so directly, He knows I'm procrastinating,
He knows I'm trying to twist and turn His words.
I guess, I really should let go already. Anw, Rosa and Andrew was behaving obscenely. -.- Sickening, I know its just hugs and holding of hands.
But still, yuck! Hahah, 12 of us ytd. Okay, make it 13, plus ryan.
That sickening guy so long never come le. LOLLL.
Today, woke up and went to church. Had praying session.
It was kinda funny and cool. (: Came home and slept for 45 mins?
And started mugging for 2 hours. And here I am now. Heh.
Finish reading my bio. Gonna revise through later and I'm ready! :D
Pray that I'll be able to study parts of geog and ss too. Heh.

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Up and coming stuff !
My house's balcony is re-painted! :D
Its gonna rain soon, I wonder. Hmmmmm..
Tomorrow's common test alr!
9 more days to the CAL's birthday.
10 more days to sweetlove birthday.
13 more days to 29th august.

Empty promises.

2009-08-15T11:12:00.001+08:00

Departing to a land of promises and peace.

Yesterday was nightmare, Today is gonna be a dream.
Hmmmm, as time passes, things change. People change.
However, God's love will never change. His love is everlasting.
Hence, I wna thank my Heavenly Father for Him,
for His amazing and graceful love. I wna thank Him for everything.
I wna thank Him for being here for me whenever I need Him.
Isn't it amazing? He's not here yet He is here.
We can't see Him, however, we can feel His presence.
Lord, reign down onto me. Cast all this sufferings aside.
People can mock all they want, but I'm staying strong in your arms.
Father, thank you for showing me your everlasting love.

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I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, now I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Deep in Thoughts.

2009-08-13T20:07:00.001+08:00

Leaving it where it ought to be.

Not sure what to choose, what to do. Where should I start from?
Many things to say, but which should be spat first?
Hmmmm, really wondering what exactly do you one from me?
What can I do to please you.
I only wna remember the sweet memories & not the painful ones.
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School was okay today I guess. Kinda fun. Hahaha.
Had the sexuality education talk during lifeskill.
Seriously lah, its all damn sick can. Yuck! *Sticks out tongue.
During investigure, choi siene did something obscene. :/
Made me laugh so long. Hahaha, sickening. Oh well.
After school, slacked with yvette, wen, Janis & weihui.
Stupid annabel go home so early. -.- Hahahha.
Oh well, just ONE more day to saturday!Wooooo~ XD

Jealously, it brings you to nowhere.

2009-08-12T19:46:00.004+08:00

I'm tired of reaching out.

Two person who totally ruined my day. First, early morning.
Second, after school. I'm tired enough of everything.
I wonder what's going on with my health, totally felt like fainting.
Too pissed to care anyway. Hmmm, I really hope that, one day,
I'll simply faint somewhere & not wake up anymore.
Sorry to those people whom I attituted today.
Lord, can I cast all my worries to You & leave them in your hands?
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To you, do you know how much you hurt me?
I did that out of good will, and you replied me like that.
If that's really what you want, then fine!
I'll do what you want me to do, dao shi hou, don't regret.
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To the other you, you yourself was seriously over lah.
& yet you wna push the blame over to us?! Like, wth.
I trusted your promises, those promises you made to me & yvette.
You have no idea how you disappointed us.
Esp what you said before you left. Don''t regret it too.
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I'm awfully tired of everything.

Unexpected.

2009-08-11T19:31:00.007+08:00

The past memories, at least I still have it.

Class was fun today, Heh. I'm sooo gonna fail my chem test.

Surprisingly, time passed by fast today. Ain't it good? :D

Packet lunch back into class. Heh, so cool lahh. Suaku. :/

Went for student investigure rehearsal after school,

it was quite fun I must say. Heh, were playing throughout.

Yvette, its kick-butt time! :DDDDDD

Heard some unpleasant stuff and was awfully pissed by it.

I totally couldn't believe my ears when I heard them.

I guess I was too naive to think that you was that innocent girl.

But I guess I was wrong, I really didn't expect you to do those things.

Stop all your acts & plasticness lah. Just be metal can. -.-

Hate your effing attitude now. You totally pissed me off.

I'm disappointed with you, *B.

Oh well, ugly stuffs aside. Really can't believe it loh.

First time I am so pissed with someone & having such negative thinkings against someone. Arghhh, come to think of it, these totally irks me.

Lalalalas, I simply can't wait for sat to comeeeeeeeee~ Heh.

I'm feeling really happy lah. Its this just a crush or love? :X

I really have no idea. Heh, think its just still an eye-candy bah?

Its been awhile since I feel like that alr. Heh, saturday, here I come! :DD

So much for your confusion, don't wish to waste anymore time waiting.

I'm tired, please wake up from your senses. Self-denial.

PICTURESSSSS~ :DDD
First 3 is taken during lesson time today. (:
Other 2 is last friday. Wheeee~ 3e1 & sisters rock! :DDD

When naz was shitting inside. :/ Hahaha.